She was all over the place
seen everywhere like a clutter
flustered most of the time,
waiting for some clarity to hit her
but she knew where her heart is.
not in one of her go to dingy bars
or in a coffee shop.
it was when she looked in your eyes
and got lured with the way you speak,
captivated with how you smile.
she wasn’t sure of everything
but she was,
I’m so certain,
sure of you.
until the confusion comes over,
took everything she thought conclusive
she was found only to be lost again.
and for the second time around,
she was all over the place again
tried searching in places where the clarity could hit her over
few smiles tried to captivate her,
looked into new set of eyes
and none was comparable to yours.
now, she’s stuck in a phase
she never thought she would come across with again
and now I learned why we search for people in the wrong places,
why we make up excuses just to show it doesn’t bother us anymore
faking it until we finally make it
because we thought we would.
but when you got someone under your skin,
it’ll be hard to brush off something enduringly etched
you can cover it underneath,
make yourself believe that it doesn’t exist
but it’s all written all over your entirety.
you could try, but you can’t erase something permanent
or at least, never let them be.
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