There are just certain people who aren't meant to fit in your life no matter how much you want them to. And this is actually what happened to me, I know a guy, he's so nice ,so gentle yet he's attractive. And obviously he'll never like me back because of my behaviours and how i look. Plus there are sexier guys I know, that are ready to accept me the way I am, and I don't know why do i keep waiting him to like me back tho.
I don't like him because he's attractive, it's because i see him in different things. Not as other girls who see him as hot piece of fuck, even if he wasn't attractive i would love him so bad, I love his loyalty. His manliness, he keeps his word, he keeps his promises, he never project his faults onto me. If he hurts me by mistake he turns it into laughs and jokes.. He's always there when i need him, he's faithful, intelligent, honest, usually mature, self-confident.. And all this is not me, he's way too much for me, and i'll never be enough for him.
He's going through a rough time these days, He says he's okay but i just feel that he's not. He doesn't laugh the way he used to, he tends to be alone... And we don't talk as much as we used to.. And I'm afraid of losing him
Sometimes life get's so overwhelming we lose our happy side. We lose the ability to laugh, the ability to smile and the ability to feel happiness.. I know he's going through a rough time, but i just want to tell him I will always be there whenever he needs me..
I love him, but I can't tell him all this, i prefer to shut up and hold it on because there is nothing I can do.