Daily Diary 2

(13 feb 2015, friday)

Today was the last day of school before carnival holidays. It was pretty good, CB (check my first 'daily diary' to know who it is) was very touchy with me and all and I love the attention and affection haha. 

We made some experiments in chemistry/physics class and I did almost nothing, it was just boring. I'm listening to Runner Runner's So Obvious right now, of course I came across this song because of a naruto video.

One of my friends was very distant today though. That gloomy feeling went away as the morning went on though, but I suspect that he feels that way because of how close I'm being with CB. I don't want to act like I'm 'the best' or anything but yes as I've said before he might have feelings for me which I don't know why since I'm trash.

I've decided to stop eating so much and honestly I feel like starving myself. I hate how I look and I want to change it. I need to start exercising and eating healthy food, but a small amount of it.

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day and I wanted to spend it with CB but he probably doesn't 'like like' me like I do, he's the kind of boy who flirts a lot and acts touchy with a lot of girls and it makes me so jealous! Even though we aren't in a relationship it kills me! I feel some special love from him but I'm not completely sure so I won't do anything for now.

I had a geography test today and it was actually very easy! Helped one of my classmates (as usual) so she better thank me if she gets a high grade hehe.

I'm relatively a great student, actually one of the best students in my class, so I'm pretty confident in my 'school knowledge' and in all the tests I do.

Two of my closest friends skipped classes today and I missed them. Another friend of mine who isn't as close to me only came to do the test and yay I was already missing him! He's very talkative and kind I hope to get closer to him as the year goes on.

This school year (my 9th grade) is being the best I've had till now. I really don't want it to end so I'm trying to enjoy it as much as I can since most people will part ways when we get to the point of 'choosing our destiny'. Especially CB. I want him to pass this year so badly, he doesn't look like someone who studies and tries to get high grades but I can feel it and he confirmed it yesterday, that he starts studying some days before tests (I tend to study right on the day before) and he asks questions in class and it makes me feel like a proud mom.

He is such a fun person to be around that I just want is to be around him all day.

As you see, all I think about is boys unfortunately, I'm weak.