I have so much worries about this new venture. I'm worried if I'm good enough to play this new role. I'm worried if I fit in. I'm worried about fulfilling this major responsibility. I'm worried if this was a good and right decision.
And right into this confusion, the opportunity to prove wrong and throw away all the negative thoughts came. We were task to specifically amend a provision and write the qualifications that will compose the board members of Bangsamoro Police.
I was lost at first. I don't know where to start. Added to that is the pressure that anytime, the session will resume and we need to finish the task. We work as a team. We didn't think of the outcome. We just want to accomplish what we were told to do.
We read provision after provision. We reviewed written by laws of several institutions. We compared and contrast. We discussed, we disagreed and we compromise. We finish the task.
We submit the output. We watch with both anticipation, excitement and fear the deliberations. It was tough. They ask a lot. And then, the victorious moment came when they finally approved our amendment. It's unbelievable.
What happened next is a blur. After the session, the commissioner I work for approach me and thank me personally for my contributions. And that's it.
Tonight, I have no more doubts left in me. I have no more fear. Because I know that with the help of my colleagues, I can do this. I am made for this.