Myungsoo walked the empty school hallway, half asleep, on his way to class. He was late, as always. Since he became a trainee he’s found it hard to wake up for school. As he reached the stairs he found a lot of people gathering. He walked to the crowed and people cleared a path for him. “That is strange.” He thought. But then he saw her sitting on the floor with her hand on her ankle. Her black ponytail on the side and she seemed to be in pain. He ran to her “Kris, are you okay? What happened?” he said in a worried voice as he knelt beside her. She raised her head and looked at him “I’m fine. I think I sprained my ankle.” She said giving him the ‘please don’t start a fight’ look. “Okay, let’s get you out of her. Can you stand up?” he said. She tried to stand but she fell with a small cry. He put her arm on his shoulder and he helped her stand up. “If you’re not going to help, move now.” Myungsoo said in a flat tone that had a warning edge to it.
“Can you walk with me or should I carry you?” he asked “I’m okay. Where are we going?” Krystal said “The nurse room, you fool. I don’t know why they keep saying that you’re smart? Apparently they don’t know you.” He said trying to cheer her up. She laughed “Well, they think you’re quiet and cold. Apparently they don’t know you.” She said and they both laughed. The nurse put a bandage around Krystal’s ankle while Myungsoo waited for her. “You should go to your class young man. Your friend is fine.” The nurse said “I’ll take her to class with me. I won’t go to hell on my own.” He said. Krystal laughed “You remember?” she said “How can I forget? I was grounded for a week because of you.” He said. She laughed “I think I was a mean person back then.” She said. He helped her stand and they walked out of the room. “I made you go through a lot of hard times. I bet you hated me.” “Since when do you care?” “I always do; you know that.” “Why are you so serious? Is it because you’re leaving?” “Soo, you know that I don’t want to go but you’re debuting soon and you won’t be free and I have to take care of my future too.” “I know. It’s just that I’m not used to not having you around.” “Say that you’re going to miss me.” she said playfully “In your dreams, Kris.” He said riffling her hair. “You need to stop calling me that” “When you stop calling me Soo. Why did you stop calling me Oppa?” “We’re in the same class. I don’t want to explain to everyone that I’m a younger than them. Who are you going to take to prom?” “I don’t know yet, why? Did someone ask you?” he said trying to hide jealousy. Krystal shook her head. He was relieved. “Still want to go to class?” he said. She shook her head “I’m sleepy.” “The library then?” he said laughing.
“Myungsoo, we’re playing soccer, care to join?” A guy said “Go, soo. I’ll be napping in the library, as always.” Krystal said smiling. Krystal sat in the library and watched Myungsoo playing. He was laughing and he seemed to be enjoying himself. She smiled and felt tears welling up in her eyes; she is going to miss him. She went to the music room and sat in front of the piano and started playing.
Myungsoo saw Krystal walking out of the library. He followed her quietly at a distance. He stood behind the door and watched her. She played a melody so familiar to his ears. It was the song that they used to listen to with their mothers; the song that he chose to sing for his audition ‘I was once by your side’. The sad lyrics made tears well up in his eyes; he knew that she was crying too. He took the camera from his bag and pictured her. He wanted to tell her to stay but he couldn’t. She’s been there for her all the time, through every rejected audition, through the hard trainee years. She always encouraged him to go on and keep fighting. He can’t tell her let go of her future for him. “Hyung, what are you doing here?” Myungsoo turned around and put his hand on Songjong’s mouth “Be quiet.” “Oh, you’re watching noona. Did she write a new song?” Songjong said then he opened the door “Noona, good morning” he said waving both his hands “I’ll kill you” Myungsoo clenched his fist. Krystal wipped her eyes “Good morning Jongi, how are you? Myungsoo did you finish your game?” “No, I’m saving my energy. We have a practice at night.” “Noona, come have lunch with us.” Songjong said. Krystal nodded as she walked slowly towards them. Myungsoo ran to assist her “Let’s go, we’re going to be late for class.” He said “See you after school, Jongi” she said.
When the last class was over and the teacher left, Myungsoo went to Krystal and knelt with his back to her “Congratulation Miss Jung, you won a piggyback ride from INFINITE L.” She laughed “You’re not going to let me fall?” she said “When did I ever do that?” he smirked. She laughed and let him carry her. “Too much PDA, don’t you think?” she said hiding her face in his back “No, not really. Enjoy this while it lasts. After our debut things are going to change.” She gave a small laugh. “Krystal” A familiar voice called her. She raised her head “Hey Tae-Yun” she said “I heard that you fell off the stairs. Are you okay?” the boy said. Myungsoo knew where this was going and no way is he going to let that happen. He had a plan and he would let no one ruin it. “Can I talk to you alone for a second?” Tae-Yun said awkwardly. “Krystal we’re late. We have to get going. Tae-Yun, you can say what tomorrow.” He said then he walked quickly not giving the boy or Krystal a chance to protest. “Yah Kim Myungsoo, what was that?” “Yah, how could you speak to me like that? I’m older than you.” He said trying to escape from her question.
“If no one asks you to prom, I’d be glad to escort you.” Woohyun said while they were eating. “Our friend here made me lose a good chance.” She said teasing Myungsoo. His face was red and he kept stuffing food into his mouth. “Slow down bro or you’re going to die.” Sungyeol said and they all laughed. Even Myungsoo laughed when he heard Dongwoo laughing. “We’re glad that you’re staying till our debut.” Sung-Kyu said “How could I leave before seeing you guys rocking the world? I don’t know if I have the right to say this but I’m a part of this too.” She said “You’re our little sister.” Songyeol said. “You’re one of us.” Hoya said “Oh, he can talk.” She said laughing “It’s good to hear your voice.” She said.
After lunch Myungsoo asked Krystal to go with him to the roof. He took a deep breath “I’m sorry, I know that I haven’t been around much lately and that I’ve been mad and angry all the time. But I know that you understand that I’m stressed and I’m having a hard time dealing with your leaving.” He said “I know and I’m sorry too. I know that I haven’t been myself lately too. The whole leaving thing is making me nervous.” He wrapped his arms around her “Everything will be fine.” He said then he stood up and went down on one knee. “Soo-ya, what are you doing?” she said in a surprised voice. “Krystal jung, would you like to be my prom date?” he said. Krystal laughed “I thought you’d never ask. Of course yes” she said. They heard clapping and cheering behind the door. “They were ears dropping all the time, weren’t they?” she said. Myungsoo nodded.
It is prom night; Myungsoo is sitting in the car in front of Krystal’s house. “You’ve seen her in dresses before. It’s no different this time.” he said to himself. He took out his camera and hung it around his neck so it rested on his abdomen. He took a deep breath and stepped out of the car. He rang the bell and Krystal’s mum opened the door. “Hey son, look at you. You look so handsome.” She said hugging him “Thanks aunt, where is Kris?” he said “She is coming right away.” A voice “Mum, what are you doing here?” “I was helping Krystal with her dress. You look so good.” She said hugging him. “Come in, she’ll come down in a minute.”
Myungsoo was trying to calm himself when he saw the shadow of Krystal descending the stairs. He stood up and walked to the stairs. When he saw her, his eyes grew wide and his jaw dropped. He stared at her as she stepped closed to him with the most beautiful smile he’d ever seen. She was wearing a floor length, strapless black dress. He raised the camera to his eyes and took as many pictures as he can. “Soo-ya, what do you think?” she said then she spun around. “You look dazzling.” He said without moving his eyes from her. She blushed “You’re staring.” She said shyly. “Sorry, let’s go.” he blushed. He couldn’t stop smiling. He kept peeking at her all the way to prom.
When they arrived, he opened the door for her then he gave her his arm and they walked into the school. When they walked among their class mates they could hear them whispering words of admiration and envy. Nobody knows that till this moment they’re still just friends. “Wait a minute please” she said and she walked into the crowed. When she was back the DJ announced “Everybody this is a special request. Enjoy your slow dance.” The soft piano melody filled the room with silence as everybody enjoyed the romantic music. “That’s your playing, right?” Myungsoo said to Krystal as they danced “How did you know?” she asked “I just know.” he said. Only dim light lit the place and everyone was dancing. Krystal took a step back and looked Myungsoo in the eyes "Oppa" she said then she stepped closer to him and put her hand on his face then she tiptoed and brought her lips to his. Myungsoo was shocked but in a moment the world seem to disappear. There was only him and her. He could hear their heart beats fast that he thought they would stop at any moment. She actually feels the same way. How much time passed? They don’t know. They just wanted this moment to last forever.
After the party was over, Myungsoo was driving Krystal home. They were holding hands. “Will you wait for me?” she said “I was wondering about the same thing.” He said holding her hand tighter. “I’ll wait for a life time.” she said “I’ll wait for till the end of time.” he said bringing her hand to his mouth and kissing it. "I'll miss you like crazy." he said.
Chapter Two
It’s INFINITE’s last debut stage. Krystal is sitting in their room while the members are going back and forth mumbling their parts and choreography. “5 minutes” a lady said through the door. Everyone seemed to panic “You’re going to be great. Now, inhale through the nose, exhale through the mouth. Everything is going to be fine. It’s your time to shine.” Krystal said with a smile. “Okay, INFINITE on three.” Sungkyu said. They put their hands. Krystal watched them with proud eyes. “Kris come on, we’re waiting.” Woohyun said and the rest cheered. She put her hand on theirs and screamed INFINITE. She hugged them as they left the room. “Something is off” Myungsoo whispered in her ears. She laughed “You’re going to do fine, soo.” “I mean you. I’ll see about that when I come back.” he said then he kissed her forehead and left. Krystal sat on Myungsoo’s chair and tears started streaming down her face.
INFINITE members returned to their room after the show and couldn’t find Krystal. “Let’s spread out and look for her.” Myungsoo said in a worried voice. “You won’t find her. She left.” Sungkyu said “Hyung, what are you saying?” Myungsoo stuttered. “Look on your desk.” He said dropping himself on his chair and looking at the letter in his hands. “She can’t leave like this without saying goodbye. That’s not like her.” Myungsoo stammered. All the boys looked at their chairs and found their letters. Myungsoo found a box. “I’ll find her.” Myungsoo said and he ran to the door. “Hyung, you can’t go like this.” Songjong said blocking the door. Sungyeol and Hoya were trying to drag him away from the door. “MOVE” he yelled. “Her flight is probably not gone yet. Read her letter and then we can go.” Sungkyu said patting on L’s shoulder.
Myungsoo sat down and stared at it, eyes filled with tears. He opened the box and found an instant camera. Tears fell from his eyes as he opened the letter and began reading. ‘Soo-ya, I know you’re probably mad at me. I know that you’re angry and sad but you knew that I was going to this. I hate goodbyes and you know that well. Also, if you’d come to the airport, I wouldn’t have left. I think that this better since it isn’t goodbye; it’s more like see you later. Enough about me already, I know that you guys are going to do amazing things. Even if it takes some time you’ll reach the top. You’re hard working and talented. Make sure what you’ve with these guys is a lot more than just work; I want you to be friends and family. Oh, take care of the boys, especially, Songjong; don’t let the others bully him too much. Keep practicing and improving but don’t forget to have fun and do the things that you like. Take a lot of pictures, make a lot of memories and cherish every moment. I’ll call you as soon as I arrive. See you soon, Soo.’
The boys’ eyes became wet as they read the letters that she left them. “She even made necklaces the shape of infinity for us.” Hoya said drying his eyes. They held the necklaces in their hands. “Oh, that playful girl” Woohyun said “L, do you want to go the airport?” Dongwoo said wiping his tears. Myungsoo nodded. “Let’s go, I’ll drive.” He said. They arrived at the airport and L ran through the place looking for Krystal. He finally caught her sitting with her mum. “Kris” he cried “Soo” she cried standing up and running to him. He wrapped his arms around her “How could you leave like that? You little brat.” He said hugging her tighter. “I knew you’d come.” She whispered “If you knew that, why did you leave?” “I didn’t want to say goodbye with tears. Oh Dongwoo Oppa, you came.” she said letting go of Myungsoo and hugging Dongwoo “Who do you think brought your friend here? You brat thought you can just leave without saying goodbye!” he said trying to stop his tears but he couldn’t. “That is why I left without goodbye. How can I leave now?” She said giving him a tissue to wipe his tears and trying to hold hers. “He needs someone to wipe his tears.” Dongwoo said pointing at Myungsoo. “I’m okay” Myungsoo said wiping his tears. “I’ll be in the car. See you later, Krystal. We’ll miss you.” Dongwoo said and walked away.
“Kim Myungsoo, do you know how hard I’m trying not to cry right now?” Krystal said wiping his tears. He looked into her wet eyes. “You know that long distance relationships don’t work out mostly.” He said. She gave a small laugh “Soo, you’re not my boyfriend, not yet.” She said. He took a step back and put one hand on his heart. “You’re my best friend, my childhood friend; you’re family. You’re more than just a boyfriend. No time or distance could ever change that. I’ll still call you in the middle of the night. I’ll be mad at you when you don’t answer my calls. My leaving doesn’t mean that I’ll stop being a pain in your ass. And if I ever heard you saying that your ideal type is not me I’ll come back and kill you.” She said wrapping her arm around his. “I still don’t believe that studying is the reason why you’re leaving. Something is off about this whole thing.” He said “Do you want me to stay?” “Are you kidding? Of course I want you stay but I don’t want you to throw an opportunity like this. Just study the things that you love and be a singer.” “What?” “Don’t play me, Kris. I heard you singing in the shower a million times. I know that your voice is beautiful. I told you to come to the auditions but you refused, remember?” he said ruffling her hair. “Oh we sang together a lot when we were young. Why did we stop?” he said looking nostalgic. She started humming ‘That I was once by your side’ and he sang along. They sang in perfect harmony with tears streaming down their faces. She let her head rest on his shoulder. “I don’t want us to end up like this.” She whispered.
After four years
“You’re a terrible friend, Kim Myungsoo. I hate you.” Krystal shouted through the phone “You’re here but you’re not planning to come see me. You’re the worst. Don’t you miss me?” She whined “Says the girl that only came home one week the last four years. I told you I’m busy. Our schedule is tight. What can I do?” he said flatly. “Nothing Myungsoo, just go to sleep, bye.” She said and hung up. Dongwoo laughed and the rest of the boys followed. “She definitely bought it.” Songjong said “Of course hyung, do you doubt my ability? Well done L that was some acting?” Sungyeol said “That was a bit too much.” Myungsoo said. “She’ll like it. Don’t worry.” Woohyun said. “Call her mum. See if everything is ready.” Sungkyu said. “Yah Myungsoo, what did you tell her?” Krystal’s mum said laughing “What is she doing?” he said “She throwing thing and cursing you and your friends in three different languages. I think she just tore the pillow that has your picture.” She laughed. They boys laughed loudly “She is cursing us, what did we do?” Sungkyu said “She has a pillow with my picture?” Myungsoo said grinning. “Yeah, she printed your face on her pillow but I think it is dead now.” Woohyun, Sungeol and dongwoo burst into laughter. “We’re outside now. Thanks aunt.” Myungsoo said. “Are these paper cranes?” Hoya said. “She threw them out of the widow. She must be really mad. This is getting scary.” Woohyun said.
Krystal poured her anger on everything around her. Finally she threw herself on the bed and buried her face in the sheets. She could hear someone singing a familiar tone outside. “Nothing’s over, Nothing’s over.” She heard and ran to the window. As soon as she looked out the tone changed to the unmistakable ‘Be mine’. Seven dancing boys in the back yard and a face that she misses so much looking at her and singing.
Be mine. I love you, okay?
I worry about you, okay?
I’ll take care of you until the end.
You know me, right?
You saw me, right?
I’ll protect you until the end
“SOO” Krystal came running through the door. She jumped on him and wrapped her arms around him. He carried her and span. When he put her down she hit him. “Ah, what did I do?” He complained. She stared at him then she turned to look at the boys “Oh my God, I really missed you guys.” She said then she hugged them. “Can I just kill the two of you now?” Sungkyu said pointing at L and Krystal. “Both of you are wearing black. This is so tiring.” Hoya said “Yeah, this is too much.” Songjong said. “You need to stop this. We’re not in a funeral.” Sungyeol said and they all laughed. “We want to meet the members of your band. You’re becoming famous.” Hoya said. “Yes, yes, yes” Sungyeol cheered. “f(x), I liked the name a lot.” Yungsoo said. “Because it is math related, of course. Hyung, you’re really weird.” Songjong said. “I’ll tell them to come by tomorrow. Let’s go inside now.” She said. They went into the house and the boys began telling stories and slowly they began to fall asleep. “They must’ve been really tired.” She said. “Myungsoo nodded “We have a lot of work and they’re stressed. Still they insisted on coming with me.” he said.
Krystal and Myungsoo sat next to each other on the couch. “I missed you like hell.” He whispered. “Not as much as me. I thought you wouldn’t come. I was scared.” She whispered. Someone coughed “We’re still here.” Sungkyu said “Oh hyung, you don’t have to be like this.” The rest of the boys said. “Let’s go out.” Myungsoo said “It’s late.” She said “Just go for a walk around the block. I bet you have a lot to tell each other.” Woohyun said.
Krystal and Myungsoo went out for a walk. He was telling her stories about the variety shows and funny incidents “You fell on stage a lot.” She said. Myungsoo’s face turned red. “Ash…. That was embarrassing. I’d be standing there focusing on getting it right and suddenly the floor beneath my feet disappears.” He said covering his eyes with his hands. Krystal laughed “When I saw the videos I was worried about you. I was mad that you didn’t tell me.” She said “I told you once and you laughed at me.” “Of course I laughed at you. It was hilarious. Soo, do you sleep well?” “Mostly no, we have a lot of work. We’re here because we finished our schedule.” “How long are you staying?” “As long as you want me to; I’m not going anywhere without you.” He said wrapping his arms around her. They stood face to face and they looked into each other’s eyes. “Oppa” she said. He smiled and said “Say it again.” She moved her face closer “Op…” Her phone rang. “Nice timing” Myungsoo whined. She laughed “Oh Luna, I’m not home.” She said then there was a small pause “Okay, I’m coming but it is 12:30 why are you at my house? Fine fine, I’m coming; just stop yelling.” she said then she hung up. “Apparently, my friends met your friends. We should go back.” Krystal said. Myungsoo sighed then he held Krystal’s hand “Let’s go.” he said smiling “Did I tell you that I love your dimples?” she said “No, you didn’t.” “Well now you know.” “Is it just my dimples?” he said. She punched his shoulder “I think you spend too much time with Woohyun Oppa.” “Don’t call him Oppa.” He said acting jealous. She laughed loudly then she started singing and dancing ‘Be mine’ as they walked. He took out his camera and took pictures of her. Every move, every step, every smile, every pout, every sulk, every laugh, every flick of her hair, her eyes, her talks; he wanted to document every moment with her. He felt peaceful and calm. He is home. He is finally home.
Chapter Three
“SURPRIZE” everybody shouted when Krystal and L walked into the house. “Happy birthday to you” they sang. Krystal laughed and covered her face with her hands. Songjong stood behind L and whispered “L Hyung, we’re missing a candle.” “No, we’re not. Krystal is a year younger than me.” Myungsoo said “You’re kidding, right?” Songjong said. Myungsoo shook his head. “What? Younger than you; this means that she is my age. I’ve been calling her noona for years.” He complained loudly. They all laughed “Is it true?” Sungkyu asked. Krystal and Myungsoo nodded. “Burn” Sungyeol said laughing hard. “They tricked you all, not just me. Krystal and hyung, that was really mean.” Songjong whined. “Oh, he is cute.” Victoria said. Krystal patted his shoulder and apologized. “So, you planned all of this with my mum.” Krystal said “Sort of; you’ve got to admit you liked it.” Woohyun said. They all sat and talked for a couple of hours then they left.
Krystal was sitting in her bed playing the guitar when she heard a knock on the window. She put a scarf on her shoulder and went to the window. “Kris, open up.” She heard the familiar voice coming from the window. She laughed as she opened the window. “Seriously soo?” she said as Myungsoo jumped into the room. “I’ve always fantasized about this.” He said adjusting his T-shirt. “You’re such a teen. What are you doing here?” she said sitting on the bed. He sat next to her. “I told you. Why are you still up?” he said taking the guitar and the music sheet. He played the cords perfectly. “Can you sing along?” He said. She sang the words she had written on paper. When she finished he complimented her singing then he started playing another song. “Mum will wake up if you sing.” She said but he didn’t stop.
maybe you're loveable
And maybe you're my snowflake
And your eyes turn from green to gray
In the winter I'll hold you in a cold place
And you should never cut your hair
'Cause I love the way you flick it off your shoulder
And you will never know
Just how beautiful you are to me
But maybe I'm just in love
When you wake me up
They heard a sound outside. Krystal put her hand on Myungsoo’s mouth till the voice disappeared. She breathed a sigh of relief, Myungsoo laughed. “By the way, how did you use to wake me up? The guys are suffering.” She laughed “That is a secret.” “You keep secrets from me?” he said “Every girl have her secrets. Mystery is attractive.” She said smirking. “You grew up.” He said ruffling her hair. “You know I wrote you hundreds of letters.” He said. Krystal asked him to show them to her but he didn’t have them. “Oh god, you’re so beautiful, dazzling. I’ll tell you this before Sungyeol does. Don’t read it now. Read it when I’m gone.” He said giving her a folded paper. She smiled and ruffled his hair “Oh cute, I said you’re staying with Woohyun oppa for too long.” “Wait till I start calling you cupcake.” He teased her. “Myungsoo, if you ever do that I’ll have to kill you.” She said punching his shoulder. He put his arm around her shoulder and pulled her to his side “I missed you, little brat.” He said “I missed you too, jerk.” She said hugging him. “Myungsoo and Krystal, if you’re done singing and playing, come to my room and bring your guitars.” Krystal’s mum shouted from her room. “She knows you’re here?” “Yup, we’d better go to her.” He said. “You knew he was here?” Krystal said to her mum “Of course, now sit down and start singing.” she said “Aunt, I have something to ask you?” Myungsoo said. His face was turning red and his hand was shaking. He took a deep breath and gathered his strength “Aunt, would let me date your beautiful daughter?” he stuttered as he said the words.
Myungsoo and Krystal stood outside the house. Krystal’s hand reached Myungsoo’s neck “You have a lot of lines. Keep your head up, Soo. I’m proud of you.” She said “I have an attractive Adam apple.” He said playfully. “You’d better get going.” She said pushing to the garden door. “So, I’ll see you tomorrow at 7.” He said and she nodded “Now, I’m officially your boyfriend.” He said holding her hands. “You have a practice in the morning, right?” she said “what are you going to do?” he said “I’m going to the cancer center with the girls.” “Oh, you’re singing there, good luck. And wear something nice for our date.” He said. Krystal punched his shoulder “I always dress nice.” She said with half a smile. He smiled “If you do that again, I’ll kiss you.” He said smirking. She laughed and said “I dare you.” He looked into her stubborn eyes then he pulled her to him bringing their lips together. He put one hand on her face and her hand with the other. She pulled away and took a deep breath. Their cheeks were burning red as they felt blood rushing to their faces.
Myungsoo finished his vocal training and was having a break when his phone rang. “L-shi, it is Victoria.” “Victoria-shi, is everything okay? Is Kris okay?” Myungsoo said in a worried tone. He heard a laugh “She is fine. I wanted to ask if you would like to come; we’re throwing Krystal a small birthday party at the center.” She said “That is good. I want to see you sing together.” he said smiling “Bring your friends too. The guys at the center would be happy. The more the merrier.” She said “I don’t think they can; we have to practice for the concert. I’ll try to sneak out and come. Just send me the address please.” He said. Myungsoo stood in front of the center “It’s great what you girls are doing; singing in a cancer center.” He said in admiration “It’s all because of Krystal. We never thought of doing anything like this. It’s her idea. You must be really proud of her.” Victoria said “Vic mom, we’re here.” The rest of the girls said. “They call you mom?” he said to Victoria. She nodded “I’m the oldest.” “That is good. We call Sungkyu grandpa.” He said and everybody laughed. “L-shi, Krystal is going to speak today. Aren’t you excited?” Luna said “L-shi, sit in the last row and try to hide. Wear this cap and cover your face.” Amber said “We’ll get the cake and come in. You’ll hide behind us, Okay?” Sulli said. Myungsoo nodded.
Myungsoo sat in the last row behind a tall man. People went to the front and talked about their struggle with cancer. His eyes filled with tears as he watched and heard them talking about their pain. After a few minutes, Krystal was standing in their place. “Hello, I’m Krystal Jung and I’m a cancer survivor; eight months clean.” She said. Myungsoo’s eyes grew wide and his heart fell to his stomach. He was frozen and the world around him seemed to be crashing. “I know that it’s hard and painful but hope is what keeps us going. We fight and endure because we know that we have loved ones that want to see us doing well, because we have a life to go back to, because we have a future. Will power, love and hope are capable of doing miracles. Thank you for listening.” She said then she froze in her place.
Myungsoo was standing in front of her, staring right into her eyes then he shook his head, turned around and walked away. “Soo-ya” she said in a faint voice. He stopped for a second then he walked again without turning to look at her. She ran after him to the parking area calling his name but he wouldn’t stop. She put her hand on his shoulder but he pushed her away. “At least let me explain. Listen to what I me, Soo” she cried. “Soo, don’t go please. Listen to me.” She cried. He felt like an ice stake was driven through his heart. It was too painful that he couldn’t think or even cry. His entire world was falling apart. ‘How could she? How could she?’ it kept playing in his head. They reached the main street and Myungsoo stopped a Taxi. Krystal grabbed his arm “Soo please, don’t go.” she pleaded but he shoved her hand away and got into the cab. He arrived at the hotel and went to his room. He turned off his cell phone that was ringing continuously with Krystal’s picture and name on the screen. He sat in the balcony staring at the sky. He felt like he was suffocating. Tears streamed down his face then he was crying loudly. He was choking with his own tears. ‘She was in pain. She was hurting so much. Am I such a bad friend? How come I didn’t figure it out? Why didn’t she tell me? How could she not tell me? Doesn’t she trust me? How could she fool me for so long? How come I never felt it? But I did, I felt it a few times. I must be really stupid. Oh god, I can’t imagine what she’s been through.’ He fell to his knees on the floor hitting his head and screaming “Fool, you’re just a fool.”
Myungsoo lay in his bed. Pulling his knees to his chest, he closed his eyes and fell asleep. “Yah Myungsoo, wake up. It is your big day, bro. You’re going to get the girl.” Sungyeol said excitedly shaking Myungsoo. “I’m not going. Turn off the light and get out.” He said without moving. “What happened, Myungsoo? Did you fight with her? You skipped practice to go see her. What happened?” Sungyeol said in a worried tone. “I don’t want to talk. Could you please leave?” Myungsoo said flatly. “You can fight with her but you can’t stand her up like this; it’s cruel.” Sungeol said. “You know her address and the restaurant; you can go if you want. Now leave me alone.” Myungsoo yelled sitting up. Sungyeol saw that Myungsoo’s eyes were bloodshot. “Bro, what happened?” Sungyeol said sitting beside Myungsoo. “You’re not leaving me alone, are you?” Myungsoo said grabbing his backpack and leaving the room slamming the door behind him. Sunygeol called the rest of the members. “Something is wrong with Myungsoo and Krystal?” he told them what happened. “If he is going to stand her up, we should go to her. May be she would tell us what happened?” Woohyun said and they all agreed.
Myungsoo sat on the floor in the practice room after dancing for a few hours. ‘I should have known. All the signs were in front of my eyes. She lost a lot of weight, looked pale and cut her hair really short. I’m a terrible person. But so is she, she thought I was stupid enough to be fooled for so long. We’re supposed to be friends. We’re supposed to share pain as well as happiness. There are no excuses for what she’s done, for fooling me for four damn years.’ His head was running wild so he turned on the music and danced again.
Krystal was wearing her favorite dress and sitting in the couch with her mum. Her head was resting on her mother’s shoulder and she was crying her heart out. “I know he is not coming….. I should’ve told him earlier….. He must be feeling betrayed…… But how could I tell him something like this.” She said between her cries. “It’s going to be alright. You know each other better than anyone. He’ll come around.” He mum said comforting her. “Knock Knock” Krystal shot up “He came” she said with her eyes lighting up. She ran to the door without ever looking in the mirror. Myungsoo knows better, he’d seen her in worse states than this. She never cared what she was wearing or how she looked with him. She opened the door and saw the handsome men all dressed up in suits. She searched for Myungsoo but he wasn’t there. “Hello we’re INFINITE.” They said in one voice then they all hugged her. “He’s not coming, is he?” she asked. They shook their heads. “But we’re here. Instead of one date now you have six.” Woohyun said throwing hearts at her. “Let’s go.” Sungkyu said putting his arm around her shoulder. “Where are we going?” she asked “We’re going to a restaurant. We’re going to have a good meal then you’re going to tell us what happened exactly.” Hoya said patting her shoulder. “For now let’s have fun.” Sungyeol said making funny faces. The members told funny stories and played a few games till they finished dinner. “So he booked the whole restaurant.” She said “He had to. You don’t want people ruining your date.” Hoya said “Hey do you see that huge swing. Let’s go sit there.” Songjong said.
Krystal sat in the middle. “Tell us what happened?” Dongwoo said “I don’t know where to start. I know you guys are going to hate me too. But I don’t know what else I could’ve done. You guys were having a hard time.” she said and tears began to fall down her face. “Calm down, Krystal. What is it?” Sungkyu said in a worried voice. “I had cancer.” She said in a shaking voice. “What?” they all said at the same time. She nodded “When did you find out?” Sungyeol asked. “Why didn’t you tell us?” Sungkyu said. The rest of the members were frozen they just stared at her. “I’m fine now; eight months clean.” She said “When did you find out?” Woohyun asked “That is going to sound really bad. I came here to get treatment. I… I … I…” She cried “You knew before you left.” Hoya said. She nodded “How could you? You kept it secret all this time. How could you not tell us? Aren’t we friends?” Songjong said “How could I tell you? You were having a hard time because of the debut and then the problems with the company. You were always tired and stressed. How could I be so senseless to tell you? You didn’t need more troubles. I was waiting for the right time.” She said “They’re four years, Krystal. You had all the time in the world to tell us.” Sungkyu said “You never have the time. You’re always on the run, always stressed out and exhausted. And there is nothing you could’ve done for me.” “At least we could’ve supported you.” Sungkyu shouted “There is no right time to tell the people that you love that you’ve cancer. How could you tell someone that you’ve cancer; that you’re dying?” She yelled then she burst into tears. Sungkyu pulled into a hug. “I’m sorry” he said letting the tears slide down his cheeks. All the boys were crying.
The boys drove Krystal home. “Take care of yourself. And don’t worry about Myungsoo. We’ll take him around.” Sungyeol said hugging her tightly. Dongwoo was still crying. He hugged her “Oppa, I’m fine. Please, don’t cry. That is why I didn’t tell you.” She said wiping his tears. They all took turns in hugging her. She waved goodbye and went home. “This is bad. Myungsoo must be really angry.” Hoya said “He is hurt and he is probably blaming himself for not finding out.” Sungyeol said “The concert is in a few days. You need to focus. And you need to solve this, whatever this is, so Myungsoo can focus too.” The manger said.
A couple days passed, Myungsoo ignored Krystal’s calls and messages. He refused to see her whenever she came to the hotel or the practice room. He fought with the members whenever they tried to talk about Krystal. He barely talked, ate or drank. He was practicing double the time. He was keeping himself busy all the time so he won’t have the time to think about her.
It’s the concert day; Krystal was lying on her bed holding a picture of Myungsoo and her when they were young. She felt like she had the weight of the world on her shoulders. The hours passed as she stared at the picture and reminisced about their childhood together. She didn’t mind if he was not going to love her again but she couldn’t lose her best friend. The ringing of her phone snapped her out of her thoughts. It was Woohyun. She felt her heart beating fast. She picked up the phone “Oppa” she said “Krystal, Come outside now.” He said. His voice was shaking “What happened?” She said in a terrified voice. “Myungsoo collapsed. He is in the hospital.”
Chapter Four
Myungsoo opened his eyes slowly taking time for his eyes adjusted to light. The strange room made him felt weird. It took him a moment to realize it was a hospital room. He looked at his side to see what was holding his hand. There she was; sleeping like an angel. She was holding his hand with both her hands and her head was resting on the edge of the bed. He moved he hair away from her eyes and gently tucked it behind her ear then he slowly brought her hand to his lips. Krystal eyes opened slightly; Myungsoo pushed her hand away. She shielded her eyes from the light but she saw that he was sitting. Her eyes lit up and she smile “You’re up.” She said wrapping her arms around him. “Don’t you dare do this again; you made us all worry. You need to take care of yourself.” She said with tears gathering in her eyes. She pressed the call button for the doctor to come check on Myungsoo. “What are you doing here? Who told you to come?” He said in flat tone. His face was expressionless and his eyes were cold. “What do you mean?” she said in a confused tone. “Who said that you can share this with me?” his voice was cold and lifeless. “I didn’t say that you can come.” he said. “You were sick.” She said trying to hold back her tears. “And so were you but you didn’t even think that I have the right to know. So, who said that you have the right to come here?” “When did you become so cruel?” she whispered “Yah, who gave you the right to worry about me and give me advice?” his words were knives that cut through her. “I worry about you constantly and there is nothing you can do about that. You didn’t even give the chance to explain myself and you stopped eating till you reached this point.” she said feeling angry from his tone. “Explain what? You selfish brat, you fooled me for four damn years. Did you even care what would I feel when I find out?” Myungsoo shouted. The doctor, the boys and Krystal’s mum came into the room. “You need to rest. The doctor said running to the bedside. Myungsoo pushed the doctor away and shouted “How could you do this to me? I don’t think I know you anymore.” “Yah, Kim Myungsoo” Sungkyu yelled. “I did it for you. I didn’t want you to suffer with me. I wanted you to be happy. I wanted you get through hard times and enjoy good ones without having to worry about me. I didn’t want to increase your stress. You said that it gets hard sometimes and I didn’t want to burden you; especially because I was away. I was scared that you would drop everything in a moment of emotional haste. I was afraid that you’d do something you’d regret later.” She said with tears bursting from her eyes. She took a few short breathes. Woohyun moved to her side wrapping his arm around her shoulder to steady her shaking body. The rest of the boys took her side placing hands on her shoulder to support her. She continued “Even when I was at my worst, I tried my best not to give up. The days when I couldn’t move and my entire body was aching I still tried my best to be strong. Because I didn’t want cause more pain to the people around me. I fought when the pain was too much, when I wanted to die just for it to end; because I didn’t want to see mum crying or make you or the boys or Jess or your mum worry about me. Unlike you I didn’t ignore myself till the point of fainting from stress and lack of food.” she cried. Tears were streaming down her face like a river flowing. It seemed endless and it brought tears to the eyes of everyone around her. “Who said that you have the right to go through all of this alone?” Myungsoo shouted. Krystal took a deep breath wiped her eyes and said “You’re right. I should’ve told you but considering where we’re standing now I think I made the right decision. The sickness was not my choice but I choose to protect you and I’d do it again. So, you can hate me as much as you want for loving you.” Krystal said then she turned and left the room.
The boys followed her but she told them to stay with Myungsoo. Sungyeol hugged her “Take care of him.” she whispered. “Boys go back to your friend. Don’t leave him like this.” She said “What are you going to do?” Hoya asked “I’ll walk home.” She said forcing a smile. “Do as she says” Sungkyu said the boys walked away except Woohyun “Hyung, I’ll come in a minute.” He said. When the boys closed the door he sat next to Krystal. “Are you sure you’re going to be okay?” he said patting her shoulder. She nodded. Woohyun smiled then started throwing hearts at her and acting cute. She laughed and tried to stop him “Oppa, this is embarrassing.” She said trying to grab his hand. “What is my favorite patient doing?” Krystal stood up “Dr. Adam, How are you?” She said “So this is your boyfriend?” The doctor asked. “No” she said shaking her head “He is my friend. Let me introduce you properly. Woohyun this is Dr. Adam; my doctor. Dr. Adam this is Woohyun; my friend.” She said smiling. They greeted each other. “I thought your boyfriend was here.” Adam said “Oh, he is here.” She said pointing at the room where Myungsoo was. “Oh, what happened?” “He was stressed and food deprived so, he fainted.” Woohyun said “Well, I hope he gets better soon. That explain why you didn’t come. Since you’re here; grab your results and let’s go to my office.” Dr. Adam said ruffling here hair. She nodded then she waved to Woohyun and followed the doctor.
It was late at night when Sungkyu received a call from Krystal’s mum asking if Krystal was at the hospital. She didn’t return to the hospital since she left that morning. Her phone was turned off, she wasn’t with her friend and no one knew where she was. They searched for her favorite spots but she wasn’t there. Sungkyu told the boys except Myungsoo who was sensing something odd in the air. They said goodnight to Myungsoo and they all left. They weren’t home that was the biggest problem. They’re not familiar with the streets or places. They split into groups of two and agreed to meet in front of the hospital again in two hours. They walked around the streets and they called Victoria and the rest of the girls to know the places she liked. They all met after two hours of roaming the streets in vein. “I think we should ask Myungsoo. Since she was sad because they fought, she is probably somewhere like the places they used to go to together.” Victoria said “But we’d make him worry and the doctor said that we should avoid stress and what happened this morning was bad enough.” Sungyeol said. “I saw her talking to a doctor this morning. May be he know where she is, they looked close. Or maybe he told her something bad. They were going to see test results or something.” Woohyun said in a worried tone then he ran to the receptionist and asked about Dr. Adam. Woohyun entered the room followed by the rest of the group. “Sorry to bother you that late. But can we ask you about Krystal’s results?” Sungkyu said “I can’t tell you. It’s patient privacy.” Dr. Adam said “Actually, we can’t find Krystal. Nobody has seen her since she left the hospital this morning. We’re worried.” Sungkyu said. Krystal’s mum walked into the room “Dr. Adam was something wrong with Krystal’s results?” She said in a shaking voice as she struggled to take her breath. “Ma’am please, sit down. Can you kids please leave?” he said and the left the room. “Ma’am you don’t have to worry. The results are all good. Krystal said that she’s been having a hard time because her boyfriend found out that she kept her sickness from him, right?” he said and she nodded “He is not just her boyfriend. Myungsoo is Krystal’s childhood and best friend. They grew up together. She didn’t tell him because he is too sensitive and emotional. He felt betrayed and he’s probably blaming himself for not being there for her.” She said “I can see; considering the fact that he’s here because of stress. Anyway Krystal told me that she wants to be alone. I didn’t take it seriously. I thought she was going to stay in her room for a couple of hours but apparently, she is stressed too. You shouldn’t worry about her. She is a smart rational girl and she’ll be back in a couple of hours; I’m sure.” Dr. Adam said trying to calm Krystal’s mum.
“I don’t think he knows anything. We should ask Myungsoo.” Sungkyu said. Victoria and the girls nodded. “Let’s sit and chat. Girls, talk about Krystal and ask him about the places they used to go to when they were young.” Sungyeol said “Try not to look worried and act normal.” Woohyun said. They walked into the room and chatted for a while then Myungsoo surprised everyone and said “Can you get me out?” They looked at each other “Guys, I know something is off and I think it has something to do with Krystal. Are you going to tell me what it is or should I find out myself?” he said. “Are you still mad at her?” Luna asked. Myungsoo shook his head “I can’t. What I did this morning was wrong but I can’t take it back. I want to make it up for her.” He said “Well, she is missing.” Dongwoo said “What?” Myungsoo said in shock. “Not missing. It’s just a couple of hours. We can’t find her. “When you were children was there a place she liked to go with you?” Woohyun said “Why didn’t you tell me? Why am I the last one to know everything? Get me out of here. I have to find her.” He said standing up. “Wait, I’ll call the doctor.” Sungyeol said running outside the room. He came back with the doctor “You have to stay tonight. We’ll let you leave tomorrow if your condition is better.” The doctor said “But I’m fine. I want to go look for my friend.” He said angrily “Sorry but you can’t. You can tell your friends here where to find her.” The doctor said then he left the room “GET ME OUT OF HERE” Myungsoo shouted. Krystal’s mum walked into the room. She looked calm “You told him? Are you stupid?” she scolded them “Relax Myungsoo, Krystal is home; she texted me now. You go home, I’ll stay with soo.” She ordered “Just a second Ma’am, Myungsoo-shi where was she?” Victoria asked. He smiled “The ice rink” they looked at him with exclamation. “When she is really stressed and she wants to think she goes to the rink to figure skate.” He said.
The next day Myungsoo was discharged from the hospital but Krystal didn’t go to see him. She wasn’t answering his calls or texts, so he asked Sungyeol to call her. “Hi oppa, how are you?” she said. There were noises around her “Where are you?” he asked turning on the speaker so everyone could hear. “I’m at the center. We’re having a party. One of the girls finished her chemotherapy, so we’re celebrating. If you guys could come I think she’ll be happy. She is a big fan you.” “We’ll try. Are you free tonight?” he said “Are you asking me out?” she laughed “We’re asking you out. We’re leaving in a couple of days and we want to spend them with you.” Sungyeol said “Are they with you?” She asked “Hi Krystal” They said including Myungsoo. He knew that she’d recognize his voice. “Hey boys, why don’t you come to the party? We’re performing today.” “Oh great, we’re coming.” Woohyun said “Good oppa, see you.” She said then she hung up “She ignored me.” Myungsoo said “Let’s get dressed.” The boys said going to their rooms.
They went to the center and sat in the last row. They watched as f(x) performed and joy spread through their hearts. Myungsoo smiled seeing Krystal perform happily. After they finished Amber announced the presence of INFINITE as they walked to the stage they were greeted with applause. “Congratulation, we’re utterly pleased to be here with you.” Sungkyu said. Krystal was leaving the stage with the girls when Myungsoo grabbed her hand. “Hello, I’m INFINITE’s L. I think some of you saw me here before.” He said tightening his grip on Krystal who was trying to get away. Some of the people nodded “You who saw know that I acted like a complete jerk.” He said bringing Krystal in front of him and he looked into her eyes. “I’m sorry Kris. I’m sorry I’ve been an idiot but you know me. You know that I can’t express myself and you know that I get emotional and say things I don’t mean. I’m sorry for acting the way I did.” He kissed her head and whispered “I think I should start doing your hair again, like old times.” She gave a small laugh. “We still have to talk about this but I wanted to apologize to you in front of them.” he said smiling. Krystal left the stage and the boys began singing ‘Be mine’
After the party Krystal and Myungsoo went for a walk. “I’m still mad at you for not telling me.” He said “I know and I’m sorry but I thought it was best for you.” She said “You should’ve told me and gave me the choice to do what is best for me. I’m not a child, Kris. And we’re friends. We’re supposed to be there for each other. And I have to admit that I’m more angry at myself for not being there for you.” “It was hard; not telling you. There were times when all I wanted was to see you and talk to you. There were times when I wanted to cry on your shoulder or even play with you. But because I know you I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t predict your reaction and I couldn’t risk it.” She said “I’m trying to understand you but it’ll take time. But you have to promise not to keep anything from me again.” “Okay but not everything.” “Enough talking about this; we didn’t go on our first date.” He said “Yes, you stood me up.” She said glaring at him. “I’m sorry for that too. Would you give me a second chance?” he said holding her hand “I’m happy” she said taking a deep breath “Why?” he asked “I just had my best friend back. So, I’ll give you a second chance. It’s the last one so use it well.” she said smiling at him.
Chapter Five
She did it again. She made my heart skip a beat. I could hear it beating in my chest. I couldn’t take my eyes off her. I was leaning on the car waiting for her and she came out and took my breath away. She was wearing a beautiful peach asymmetric dress. Her hair flew as the wind brushed through it. I was frozen. She looked stunning. No, she looked dazzling. I walked to her and held her hand. She smiled at me and said “Oppa, you came.” I brought her hand to my lips and kissed her hand smelling her scent. I gave her a bouquet of her favorite flowers as she smiled and gave me a peck on the cheek. I opened the car door for her and we drove to the restaurant. We sat on a couch swing in front of a big screen. “What is this?” she asked “You’ll see” he said as the waiter served them wine then the lights went out and the screen lit up. Pictures of Krystal and Myungsoo when they were young played on the screen with Myungsoo’s voice in the back ground; pictures of them playing and dancing, pictures of her smiling, laughing and crying, the pictures that Mungsoo took during their time together.
‘This is a story about a boy and a girl. When the boy was seven years old he had new neighbors. They had a girl younger than him by a year. Days went by and they became friends. They’d play together and go everywhere together; they even shared the same bedroom for three years. They were both very shy around new people but very energetic when they were together. The girl went to school with the boy. Because she was so smart she managed to jump a year and be in his class. They’d walk to school together, study together, write songs and play music together. The boy decided he wanted to be a singer and the girl helped him. When things were too difficult she’d encourage him. When he felt down she’d support him. She was his sunshine. He gathered his courage and asked her to be his prom date and she said yes. Nothing could describe the happiness he felt at that moment. In the prom the girl gathered her courage and kissed the boy. At that moment he realized that what he felt for her was more than friendship. When it was time for him to go on stage, she cheered for him. Then she went to live her dream and study abroad. A sad farewell separated the two friends for four years but their ties were never cut. Sometimes he’d feel that she was hurting and he’d cry even if he is on stage. And they were reunited once more with happiness. A fight drove them apart but they managed to find each other again. What this boy and this girl have is far beyond friendship or love. They’re soulmates.’
A picture of couple rings appeared on the screen with the word ‘soulmates’ carved in the inside. Krystal eyes were filled with tears, tears of joy. Myungsoo leaned to her and whispered “I’ll tell you a little secret. I used to call you without a sound.” She turned to him and hugged him tightly. After they broke the hug Myungsoo took a black box out of his pocket. His song ‘Love U like U’ played with his voice singing live as he placed her ring on her finger and she placed his ring on his finger. “I’ll never let you slip away from me.” he said putting his hand on her face and moving closer. The gap between their faced closed as his lips gently touched hers and began to move slowly and passionately.
She let her head rest on his shoulder as she heard him sing.
The dazzling you swallows all the darkness of the world
And that light blinds me
Any kind of darkness loses its strength in front of you
I only need you