I wish I could be lied to
I wish I didn’t know
My emotions would thank me
And my tears would forsake me
May death take me
When I cry alone
My heart is an empty home
A king without a throne
I live among the peasants
And fell in love with resentment
My heart is tortured to be aware
I hope tomorrow I won’t care
Empty smiles is how I prepare
Love is a notion my heart can’t renounce
And my cursed mind has lost count
Of how many times you slept with the enemy
Loneliness is a best friend to me
Forever was in your face
But you chose to taste
Blood from a torn heart you refuse to erase
Go ahead, embrace your sins
And I’ll pretend to win
Your confused heart
I’ve known from the start
This love would be suicidal
My adoration remains idle
Reciprocity is vital
So leave me incomplete
How could I compete?
With a past that is still present
My testament
Is swallowed with my pride
I see his reflection in your eyes
And continue to gaze
Stabbing my heart with your devoted ways
Shatter your mirror
Rest is that much nearer
Kill my dream
Every time you scream
His name
At least you have no shame
My shoulder was for you to cry
Just so you can give pain one more try
And yet my shoulder misses you
Teach me how to resist you
So I can achieve a loveless bliss
My heart is a clenched fist
Squeezing a dead rose
The thorns make my palms bleed
To want you to myself is greed
So I live with an unsatisfied need
The only blessing I can look forward to
Is if I cross your mind when you love him
At least I can trust him
To break your heart
So I can put back together all the parts
Of your troubled beauty
Loving you is grueling
Together we seem so perfect
Yet with every thought of him we turn worthless
What purpose
Does your attention for me serve?
Other than to leave me burned