I know I've wrote it and I've said it a thousand times that I'll wait patiently for you. But honestly sometimes, it kills me inside knowing that there's no assurance and certainty that you'll come for me.
You are still an abstract from my imaginary mind. I don't know who you are, I don't know what you look like and I don't even know if you really exist.
It pains to think that I'm waiting all this time for you, but maybe the truth is you're just gonna be my imaginary soulmate. Someone who is only destined to live inside my head, a mere fantasy that was built up from my whimsical dreams.
I know I'm being impatient here. But you can't blame me for that. I've lived my life for being alone ever since before. I'm not even sure if this heart of mine still learns how to love. Don't get me wrong, I mean to love romantically. (Just so you know, I'm such a lovable person).
Until now, all I can do is to wonder where you are right now and what you are doing at this very moment.
Are you talking with your friends? Eating dinner or breakfast with your family? Getting ready for work? Or cuddling with someone? Well, I won't be jealous of her, cause I know time will come that you'll realize that the right one for you is still here writing this letter while thinking about your faceless face. You get what I mean right? You're still faceless cause I haven't met you yet.
If you're somewhere in this world doing I don't know what, I hope you'll find your way to me. I hope you're not taking any detours anymore cause it's kinda tiring waiting all these years.
I know I should be more patient, but I'm just a girl. All girls feel like this especially when everything seems so ambiguous and obscure.
I just hope and pray that you are alive and you really exist in this world, that I am waiting for someone so real and genuine. I don't mind waiting for how long, as long as in the right time and in the right place I'll get a chance to meet you.
I'm sorry for being a stubborn while writing this one. I promise to be good and be the best that I can be as I'll wait for you. So when the right time comes, both of us are ready to take to our next chapter in life. A chapter of being us together.
Before I finish this one, I just want you to know that I'm crazy as hell sometimes, I'm hard to handle and I've got a lot of mood swings. You might be wondering why I'm telling you this? So when the time comes that you'll meet me, I want you to prepare for the worse. I don't want you to except something and someone I am not.
But don't worry, there's still one positive thing I am sure of, if you'll love me with all your heart, it will be the best feeling in the world. I swear to God it's true.
See you soon!