Dear Dude:
She's writing to let you be informed. She's writing to let her words make their way through your heart. She's writing through her soul. And she wished it will get to you even for a bit.
Do you know how much she loves you? How much she still cares for you? Even up to now? Do you have any idea at all?
You said yes. You said you do.
But seriously, do you?
Well she guesses, you never really understood. Maybe you're tried. But you never did well enough. Isn't it?
You said she easily falls. She fell for you so fast and deeply.
But do you know what you have done?
Do you know how much you've led her on?
Do you know how much she treasured every moment which was unmeaningful to you?
Do you know how much you've made her feel special?
Do you know how much sweet words you've spilled?
Do you know how much she doesn't want to fall for them?
Do you know how much she valued that you've justified them with actions?
Do you know?
Seriously, do you?
You said you're not the one for her. That you're not the right man.
But do you know what you've done?
Do you know how much you showed you're different from all the others.
Do you know how much you've changed her stiff and narrow beliefs?
Do you know how much you've melted her supposed to be cold heart?
Do you know how much you've mirrored her everything?
Do you know?
Seriously, do you?
You said you're not meant to be.
But do you know what you've done?
Do you know how much she looks forward to that 30 year old marriage promise?
Do you know how much you've spent holy hours with her, when you're not supposed to?
Do you know how much you made her feel appreciated?
Do you know how much you've shown you're patient enough to tolerate her?
Do you know how much you've let her cling to you, coz you made yourself too dependable?
Do you know how much she wanted to push you away, but you showed her that you should be kept instead?
Do you know?
Seriously, do you?
You said she lets her emotions get the better off her.
But do you know what you have done?
Do you know how much you've messed with her feelings?
Do you know how much you've played with her heart?
Do you know how much she's struggling to fight all her emotions?
Do you know how much you've let her ponder?
Do you know how much you ignored her concerns?
Do you know how much you've taken her for granted?
Do you know?
Seriously, do you?
Do you know you killed her everyday when you've let her see you cling to another girl?
Do you know she's so stressed that you're screwing her up while messing with her close friend too?
Do you know you shattered her heart When you spilled sweetness to another soul, while she's there beside you?
Do you know how much it hurt, when you made her feel she was a wrong move, while her close friend was the right one?
Do you know how much it pained her when you told her, you've chosen another girl, and you're choosing your own happiness?
Do you know how helpless she was,
When she wanted to cry but she can't ask you to comfort her?
Do you know how painful it is for her to feel all these, but she felt so untitled, coz you're never hers to begin with?
Do you even know how much you've made her feel unworthy?
Do you even know how much you made her feel, she loves too much and it's all wrong?
Do you even know how much you made her think she's not good enough?
SERIOUSLY, do you?
Well, do you know she's lost right now? That she's too exhausted already? That she felt worst for not being chosen twice in a row? That she felt so used and so torn?
Do you know how much she badly needed someone right now? To just stay by her side? To be just there and that's all she's asking for?
You don't know. I bet you won't ever. Or if you ever did, you won't do anything either.
Hoping for your utmost concern too.
Much love,
The girl you didn't choose