Deleted Contact

I almost accidentally called you today,

Oh wait yes this means i still have your contact saved,

I was excited, it was a good news you came in my mind first,

I grab my phone and speed-dial almost,

I heard a voice inside my head "he's gone"

I focused on that voice and it says more and more

I came back into senses, first excitement fade away after that the eagerness to tell you,

Is it going to be like this from now on?

Even in my happy thoughts i will feel sadness from now on?

I don't know how to end this misery of mine,

I couldn't delete the contact so i made few alterations,

Now its says "Deleted Contact", but really? No just metaphorically...