When I found my first love,I was this much happy that I can't tell you.But when the same love cheated on me.It took actually all of me.And now I am at the dangerous state of depression.
All my thoughts are suicidal.Friends holding my hand like a child who don't know how to deal with things for the first time ever in their life.I am confused this much that I really don't know what I want.
And later I have realized that all I needed was the caring like a child.And for me only a loved one can do this.And my bad luck,there is no one like that in my life or maybe I am afraid of finding a new one.All I need now is the mental care.But everyone close to me failed to give that care.
I know they all tried their best to put me up again.But its my mind which is not happy with out a councilling or it may wanna see a psychatrist.Or it may want that empty place get filled soon.
I never thought the depression and tension could lead somone to a lifetime illness.Mine lead me to the skin problems.My scalp started to generate scales due to fungi infection.It have been about 4 years in which i am suffering.And no medicine could actually able to cure my illness.
Today on 23 of july 2015 ,I am waiting for my call infront of Dr.Alex's home.I have no regrets,no expectation and confidence.All I now have is an anxeity that what is Dr.Alex going to say about my illness.Will he say that I will be okay soon.
Many patients and medi.reps were getting in and coming out and atlast here comes my chance Dr.Alex read my name from the slip.For a minute,me and my father doubted that is that for us?.We stood up and went into his room.I told him what am I experiencing from the very first day of my disease.
I showed him my infected areas of ear and nose.He told it 'll be difficult to cure this.I suddenly experienced a loose of confidence.But I beleive him,because he will cure this thing as he does earlier when I had tyfoid.
I don't will this ill ever gonna leave me or not?I am not afraid of anything.Not about my future.And not afraid of loosing my loved one
because of my illness.I respect myself now.And I hope that one day my sickness will leave me alone. It will be irritated by itself.
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