Was it about me?
Was it about the way I feel?
Was it because I thought it's real?
In your view, am I correct or not?
In your garden, did I bloom or rot?
Or was it because I'm numb?
Or just because with you–
I feel so freaking dumb?
Did you ever say you think of me?
Did you ever say you wish to be with me?
Did you even wonder why I am like this?
Did you even think I'm the one you missed?
Did you notice the smile I put on my face?
Did you notice my fragile heart—
Beating so hard as if I am on a race?
I know you don't
And I know you won't
I know the facts
I am aware of the truth
I live by the reality
That you never really loved me
But why do I feel so wrong?
Why do I think it's not right?
Everytime I look at your eyes–
I can't seem to know if they're true
Or as usual, just plain lies
Why can't I move on?
From your words
From your actions
From your late make-up efforts
From the way you hold my hand
From the way you say you miss me
From the way you make me love you more
Tell me—
Did you ever love me?
Or was it just an illusion?
Was it because of me?
Was it because of you?
Was it because I just don't really know?