When I was shattered I wasn’t able to salvage the pieces before they were taken by the waves
I lost myself yet again just right after I found it
The gossips spread like wildfire over the night
And people are ready to kill for a one sided truth accompanied by a lie
I went alone to a fight empty handed
And the enemy has brought himself an army thirsty for my blood
All their painful words tattooed on my skin
And voices in my mind echoes like a broken record
It was painfully slow to see myself dying every single day
Ghosts of my mistakes haunt me even in my sleep
That I dread waking up to another day
I am currently falling in an abyss of darkness
I have never felt so numb my entire life
That it’s useless to even try to fix myself when I am an incomplete puzzle of chaos
It’s the quietest battle between me and my demons every night
Betting on who gets to witness another sunrise
Until the day comes when they finally get to take over me
Controlling me like a puppet on a string
And my anxiety making it worst by making me weaker than I already am
Judgement has always been my biggest fear and here I am in a courtroom of prejudice
I almost thought I convinced myself that I am standing still
That the waves hitting me wasn’t dragging me to the ground
But my sandcastle was already crumbling down before I even knew
So I built a wall out of bricks to shut them out
Just to see them vandalizing a mockery out of me
I could still feel the fire that burned me alive
When I was bewitched as if I’ve been performing spells
But I have no more tears to shed in this drought that killed all the flowers I once grew
No matter how hard I search I can never find a safe place to hide
I am a hollow room of darkness
A paralyzed warrior left alone to die
This is one of the rarest moments I’m glad my mama isn’t here to witness how damaged I am
Because I am no longer the bravest girl she once knew
Once you’re broken you’ll never be the same person twice