I am wondering if I m still the person I used to be a few years back. One fine day, when I had nothing to do and nowhere to go, I was recollecting my memories when I saw a few children, through my window, playing on the road.
I noticed everything had changed including our favorites and habits. People say, 'mold yourself at an young age and you remain the same no matter what'. But according to me it is just a myth! My favorite color used to be black and then changed to blue and then to pink and now it all depends on my mood. Leave alone colors, even my interests and hobbies have changed, although some things still remain the same like my love for playing sports and my love for writing! I find everything has evolved around these years, except for my parents. Yeah, my best friend in school now doesn't even have my contact. Thanks to social networking because I can at least see her name in my friend list although we don't talk at all . My partner in crime during college days doesn't even know where I am now. My gang of friends as we people call it also has been changing. One person remains all along, touchwood. But I m not pretty sure how long is she also going to be there.
The most intriguing fact is that people who did not even talk during school time met somewhere at college and are now the thickest of friends. One of those people used to be my best friend. I still wonder if I m at fault or does this happen to everyone. What confuses me the most is I have never bid goodbyes to any of my friends nor have we fought and got separated. It is just in due course of time that my place of study and work kept changing and we lost contact. NO WAIT... I am still remaining in the same place and location since school. My college was also not too far from my house and neither is my office. They have started going to different places for studying and met new people. I have realized that you are the best thing ever happened to a person until they meet a new one!!!
Hard to take in, but that's the inevitable truth. Every relationships change. People whom you did not like during school wish you good luck when you post something on your wall and to your surprise they start talking to you as though you guys were always in contact. Well that's what people call maturity, if I m not wrong. And you too respond to them and act like you are matured too, but that's what I call as respect you give to another soul.
I felt awkward when I tried to get back the days where my friend and I used to talk for hours and laugh at our silly jokes. what happened was she moved to a new school, new atmosphere and new friends. so we did not have much in common to share as she had to get along with her friends and needed time for the same. That's how many of our contacts get cut. I was waiting for her to get settled and realized that I was into college by the time I had waited and now when trying to get back the relation, I find it too awkward to talk as all that lasts, is a 'Hey, how re yu? ' or a ' what re yu up to dude'. Which gets answered too soon to hold on to a conversation.
Whatever! but what still keeps me pondering over is that are these changes bound to happen or is it because we are chained to our daily activities that we forget to relive our relationships with the people whom we have lost contact with but wish to be in contact with. Or is it that I m at fault?
Why is it that I keep wondering about this so much when I am pretty sure that my other friends don't even have time to think about the past. Lord save me from drowning in my own thoughts which are not going to be of any help to me!!!
But folks, please don't feel bad about yourselves if this has ever happened to you because EVERYONE is facing it at one point or the other in their lives. Just move on as life goes by, but don't stop to greet an old mate if you ever step across.
A smile sometimes gets people back and a hug solves everything.