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I am not my usual self again. My heart is filled up with hatred, angst, sorrow, joy all at the same time- as if my soul is doomed. My mind races to the sky, beyond the clouds pouring down, my heart shattered to pieces; pieces so tiny that I am unable to gather them. All that I wanted, wished for vanished in thin air. My eyes wouldn't shed a single tear. How I wish to cry my heart out. But then, I am expected to wear a smile on my lips, and conform to the social norms.
I love him with all my heart. One true love of my life.My companion of life. We shared pleasant memories, had petty fights. He used to tease me in a cute way. I am head over heels for him even today.
His smile is what i fell for. His wit exemplary.His eyes mischievous,but filled with love. His gestures generous and kind.
And never ever i thought that he would leave me alone fighting in this world.I am angry with him. Every morning, he woke me up with a tender kiss on my lips. I used to read him poems, or stories before going to bed. A package of joy for me. My life was so joyful and my soul calm and happy.
And then one day, like this damp day, I remember every second of that uneventful day....
I was out for groceries. I planned to prepare his favorite pakoras.When I was back, there was a note lying on our table... saying
"Good bye my dear. I leave you for us. Do not wait for me. Forget me."
How dare he to play such a prank with me, I thought. I searched him every nook and corner only to find that he wasn't there. I called up his friends and colleagues. He resigned his job. I didn't understand what went wrong.
But i was persistent to find him. "How could he do this to me?" I was angry and worried.
Out of blue an acquaintance of mine called me up. He told me that he has seen him in an ashram in a small village in Kerala. I rushed to the place and my fears came true. He was suffering from a very rare disease Leukodystrophy- the white matter of the brain is damaged and motor functions decrease, muscles become rigid and eventually leading to death. There is a great lack of treatment for this disease.
He didn't want to see me. How could he think I would love him less; or leave him in any condition. I was sorry that he couldn't share his sorrows with me. I couldn't prove to be his support. He was my support system, my back bone, my life. He told me to forget him! I spent the remaining time tending to him, praying that he would get well soon, and as usual, what i wished for never came true.
Now I can only feel his presence; in breeze that caress me. I receive his kisses through the morning sun light. I cry and his portrait smiles back at me. How can I forget him? He is not just a memory, he is my life.
Though the essence of living is lost, I stay alive for the sake of his child; our sweet little boy. I shall live to make him like his father, a wonderful man.
His mischievous eyes and smile, his touch- so gentle, he is his father's boy! How I wished he was by my side as a person! Well I know he has never left my side... always around me...in the nature. But still I need to pluck up the courage and fix my shattered heart for the sake of my little boy- who has never known his father.
My thoughts shift to my baby as he comes running to me drenched in rain and soaked in mud. Naughty like his daddy!
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Published on May 07, 2016
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