How do you trust someone you just met..maybe its the feeling in your gut that tells you "don't" or the sadness that overcomes your whole being because you know that they cannot be trusted...their words have lost the meaning of truth, their words...lost in the silence of your quite crying...
You cried because you knew. Their loyalty was nothing to them as much as it was to you! "Why cant you find a guy who you can make stay with you, why cant you get this right, this time" Telling yourself as you walk down the road that you seemed to foretell that it has been walked down previously...with memories of Him.
Your previous to him didn't work...he didn't stay...the one before ran away...and the ONE PREVIOUS to that one...well who knew why he left you! Maybe it was because you were so "out there" that they all couldn't handle you or maybe it was because you wanted to live the life even though it was all but grey and white, but you still wanted to live it...but they all left...left because of you, or as you tell yourself. You know that your a beautiful woman, no doubt, that walking past a man gets his attention, no doubt that you know your true beauty, its beyond skin its beyond the eye of man....its deep in the heart where your the only one who knows her true self, who truly knows why she was so betrayed, why a man saw her as "kind" and "gentle" creature that he didn't bother even giving you a thought of how fragile you can be, because you care way to much and way to much you hold on to, your loyalty went beyond the loyalty of the sky as it comes every day even if it might not want to....YOU are loyal because you have nothing else to be, but loyal! No one could appreciate that...no one would understand what it feels like to be you, no one would know it because they are busy looking elsewhere for someone else!