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i thought if i showed you that a person can still be accepted and loved even with the evident flaws plastered with their very existence,
you will somehow understand that intimacy and attachment shouldn't be thrown aside
but you chose to blind yourself and inflicted everyone around you.
it shouldn't be hidden, denied, intentionally and purposely abused.
those are the emotions one shouldn't feel being with their loved one.
the cards of pain shouldn't be on our playing hands
but who would have thought that you had a handful of it.
i have no regrets spending smooth and bumpy roads with you,
no guilt for staying and not running away for the first time,
truth be told, i am grateful to you for letting me experience those ideas and moments because i know i wouldn't be able to teach that on my own.
without you, i won't be able to learn.
if there is one thing i am certain of, is that was i still thankful for you barging into my life even with the unfavorable consequences.
thank you for showing me what love shouldn't be.
this should be an open letter
but there are some thoughts that you shouldn't hear
for this is for my own sanity
and you are no longer part of it.