Time is passing, I am trying to forget everything related to him that makes me cry everytime.But things are not changing , infact not a bit. I still wake up with a nightmare in which he is going away from me. I still wake up and he is my first thought comes into my mind.I still look on my cellphone's screen and hope that he would be calling me sometime or at least would be leaving a text. My diary has been filling with his name. I think i.e. we'll go these places when he will come back, I should purchase two pairs, one for him, I will give such surprises on his B'Day, and many more.
Every evening , I go to sleep with a hope that he has come back and saying,"I'm back Ssup and I promise that I'll not do it again.I love you.Do you still love me?"
I was thinking all these stuff, suddenly Titanic ringtone pulled me back into reality.My cellphone was ringing. I picked up my cellphone and looked on the screen. No,No,No........ How is it possible? "****** ****** calling" .I could not beleive it. I was confused ,to do cry, to laugh, or the most important to receive the call. But How could I receive the call because my hands were shivering. But I did not want to make him waiting for me. I know very well how much difficult it is to wait. So I took a deep breath ,controlled my hands and recevied the call finally.
I started listening some music ,noise, and a silence too But why was he not saying anything? I couldn't wait anymore. So I started saying something, suddenly a voice came finally, it was his voice.And I found him like he is somewhere around me.
He said,"Hey!"
I said ,"Hiee!"
he said,"How are you?"
I said,"I'm good."
I said,"How are you?"
"Ssup.....ssshhhhhhh..... just listen to me.No question ,no answer, just listen to me for a minute only",he whispered with his elegant voice, something that I like in him a lot.
Now I remained silent.But my heart was shouting "I knew that you will come back and you have come finally.You don't need to say anything.I love you too. "
He wanted to say something , and someone's cellphone started ringing.That ringtone was irritating me,but I became sanguine. and I riffled myself and.........
Ouch! I opened my eyes, and looked that ceiling fan in anger like that was the reason of falling down from the bed. And again he was in the dream only.But I want to see this dream again and again till my last night I''ll die and want to die with this hope only that "He must come."Even I know he will not come definitely.