As the end of 2019 I felt something inside. I didn't join my family at dinner, because I was crying inside my room. I've broken-down. I didn't know that I was that pressured. I felt every inch in my body that I was not in any good condition. I want to stop crying but the tears in my eyes won't stop falling. Like I have to take away those bad energy out from my system. And just start crying.
Last Sunday, Dec 29, 2019.
I was so down that I cried. I attended mass while crying in between. I'm just moved that 2019 will be ending soon. And that I wouldn't be able to be best friends with my pal. I said to myself. "Shocks ending this year with a crying. This is not a good year for me." But then as I scan around the Church. I saw words from a woman's shirt. As I looked closely, I smiled to myself.
They were "Hope, Survive and Live," I smiled sheepishly because I was amaze that my prayers were answered. Lord You never fail to disappoint me. You really know how to brighten up my situation.
I didn't know that these three words would make an impact and a mark to my life.
It's so amazing that He knows what I am feeling. Thank You Lord for not leaving my side. Thank You for believing in me when no one else did. You always amaze me in ways I couldn't explain.
And at that moment I was so relieved that someone like Him would listen to me. I thought no one would understand me.
As I looked back from 2019 I saw a brave soul. And said "This isn't a bad year for me; because I enjoyed this year. And It made me even stronger. I got to know myself more. But you know I still have flaws. But hey, we all do... Right? I didn't know that I'm still that lazy and clumsy girl, slow in doing things, sometimes has concern about material things and doesn't know how to control her mouth. And I don't like it. Who does love their negative triats? It's just unfair that here... We're complaning about petty things when others doesn't have a roof under their heads or a complete meal to eat. We should be thankful for the things we have. Things that surprises us. We should be thankful because we are blessed. Thankful for our creator."
As I end and leave last year's chapter, 2019. I would like to say Thank You.
Thank You Lord for the unending love and blessings. For the safety of the people from the storms that came. For being kind and not selfish. To surprising us with gifts/talents that are overflowing. For the lessons that we learned from You and in the body of others that we meet. For Your guidance and for Your generosity. For good company from people we love. For helping us move on from the past. For Your beautiful creations that we have visited. For understanding us and for showing us the true essence of being a great influencer. For believing in us when no one did. I’m grateful for every trials and testings. I also pray and hope that violence in this world would lessen.
Lord I'm Forever Grateful of You.
So Thank You once more.
Jesus Christ is the Greatest Gift that Mary has given to us.
May God bless us all.
Have a prosperous New Year!