I'm not like most girls
I don't say "I love you"
I can't act all cutesy
And tell you how much I miss you
I show my feelings through my awkward gestures
And I hope you know I love you
When I stare at your eyes when you speak
And let you hear my innermost thoughts
Words have always been my comfort zone
But I don't understand why
I can't bring myself to tell you
Instead, I pick up my pen and paper
I open a blank page on my notebook
And write everything I want you to know
I'm a bit hard to understand
But I hope you care enough to read between the lines
When I show you the poems I've written
Please know that it means I trust you
When I write, I take off the mask I wear
And pour every feeling I have in its rawest form
I hope you know how fast my heart races
When your eyes sweep over my scribbled words
I keep waiting for you to ask me what's wrong
I keep wanting for you to realize I'm not okay
But, somehow, I wish you don't
Sometimes I wish for you to leave
To disappear from my life completely
Because I'm scared you'll walk away when I need you
I'm not like most girls
I'm probably weird, stupid, and way too awkward
But when I love, I love with all of my self
And when I care, I care so much that it hurts