Remember the time you leave home? How about those moments where I asked and pleaded for you to stay? Can you still remember how I cried in front of you? Did you remember how I bend my knees as if you're a god and I am your worshiper? Did you hear my weak voice? Did you held my hand and took away my tears? Sadly, you did not. You still walked away leaving me helpless.
For a month, I rarely ate. I lose so much weight. I looked so pale. My eyes have dark circles because I can't sleep well. I'm still hoping that you will come back for me but you did not.
I even tried to end my life by cutting my vein. I never thought that this act will show how selfish I am. I close to kill my own child. I'm glad, my parents brought me to the hospital before my plan succeed. That's when I found out that I'm four weeks pregnant.
It is a disgrace for my family so I decided to leave home. I asked them to stay away from me but they disagree. They still support me and the child in my womb. This is the moment that I felt how blessed I am.
After a few months, I can finally hold the most precious gift I ever receive.
I look at the left corner of the room. She is the most beautiful baby in the world. She's wake and she smiles. It melts my heart. I never expect that I will remember you in her. When my daughter smiles, I see your smile too. I close my eyes wishing that she'll never leave me, the same as you did.
I look at the right corner of the room. I see the most handsome baby in the world. He's so active. My smile gradually fades when I remember you playing football in our last year of college. I close my eyes wishing that he would never leave me the same as you did.
There's nothing that can bring me such joy as holding my children as I look into their peaceful face. The feeling is heaven as I caress them with my hand. When they cry, it was not noise for me instead it becomes a piece of music coming from angels. I really love my children!
Maybe I'm crazy but I should thank you for giving them to me. I realize that leaving isn't the end of all. It's just a new beginning for something to be created. We're finished but my relationship with my children will never end.
All those years, I am thinking that being a teacher is the noblest duty that I could do but the moment I saw the eyes of my children, I realize one thing—my noblest duty is to be a mother.
Even if I am scared about what might happen, I will never get tired of trying everything to be the best mother for my children.
When the time comes,
you'll ask me who are those kids.
I'll respond quickly.
She's my daughter.
He's my son.
We'll smile and walk away as we pass to you like the same old story.
We can live without you.
Unlike the old times,
It will be the reverse.
You said the words you forgot to say... but it's too late.