6 years have passed since that dreadful night.. Image of you have started to blur. Making me wonder, was it just a nightmare that I saw? All my life I have known that to honor someone means to shower respect. But that night made me doubt on everything I have ever known.. on everything I have ever believed.
I was 17 when we fell in love.. you were in your last year of graduation then. A tall, lanky lad.... It happened so fast that I really couldn't remember the exact date when it all started.. all I remember was it was you who had saved me from the seniors.. it took you half a year to ask me out... and the moment you did, there was never a end to our romance. I was so emerged in our love that I forgot that I couldn't marry whom I love. It's all chosen for me already.. like a a fate imposed on me..!! Yes, I had my fault there.. I should have asked your caste before falling in love with you. That was a sin.. a sin that would haunt me for the rest of my life.
We ran.... leaving every obstacles behind.... we ran to start a new life. You held my hand so tight, I can still will your presence even to this day. Dreamlike my world had been....that 8 months felt like a lifetime to me. Cooking for you... sleeping with you..!! My whole world had been you..and just you.
11 February 2009... that was the last day we had kissed before they put an end to our love story... They said that we were a disgrace to their society and they will make us pay to set an example...I wanted us to be an example of love...but what are they talking about?? I couldn't understand.. but before I could get what they are up to.. they all held me and you..!! What did they want... I was scared.. I heard you screaming.."Let her go please".. and see my love, so they did. I stood there still.. when you were being tortured by that creatures... I couldn't do a thing to save you.. I stood there screaming, crying, begging them to show some mercy, but they didn't. And then I heard a yell that still echoed within and passes through my veins.
"Honor Killing" and then within fraction of seconds they beheaded you.. I stood there, immobilized..!!! I expected them to do the same to me.. but they didn't. They kept me as a live example.. for people to see the fate of a girl dared to love. I don't remember.. how long I sat there with your severe head on my laps.. it felt for eternity, your eyes held mine even after the soul that left.
Each day passed..an ache I couldn't bear...I lived in the illusions and shut closed myself in the shell. What were you trying to murmur at last, love? When the breath had left you, why did you look at me and smile?
It's been six years long..I don't cry anymore. That 19 years old girl has changed piece by piece... it took me so long to bury your picture within me..Yes, it took so long to learn to live without you. They kept me alive to die everyday with the guilt.. but they will regret keeping me alive, I promise.