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I Hate Her Eyes

I hate my lips

How my lies easily flow out of it

Not knowing the difference between it and the truth

Because my words don't matter

Among all the sentences around me

I hate my hair

How it can never be like that in the commercial

It's too dull and short

Probably the same two words to describe my life

If this is ever called living

I hate my face

How it's too unattractive for anyone to like

Or to look and appreciate

To blame them, I cannot

For I don't want to see me, too

I hate my wrists

How I recklessly slashed it so I could end me

Or at least end what was left of me

I don't even know how this life would be done

When I don't remember when it started

I hate my belly

How it's too fat to fit into anything

But unlike my pants, the world is big

I could easily be just a face in the background and fit in

A mere face in the crowd

I hate my mind

How my thoughts run wild with negativity

Letting it be eaten by my self-destructive words

Under the starless night sky

Enveloped by nothing but silence

Accompanied by soft snores and cricket noises

I hate my heart

How it beats without staying alive

Trying to feel again after being numb

But then again, I'd rather have it functioning

Than feeling anything

I hate me

How I look into the mirror every time

And be reminded that I'm a failure

Of all the lies I've told myself and fed my mind with

This one feels truer than truth itself

I hate her

I hate the girl staring back at me

How she looks at me with such hatred

While her demons are slowly knocking on her irises

Threatening to be released

In a series of uncontrollable tears

I hate her eyes

How it never smiled while her lips did

While she stared back at the face that looked so familiar

But was never dear to her heart

How she didn't see her way back

When she once was lost

How she sees all these imperfections

But never her worth.