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I have a friend in me.

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Ego: You may ask why I have come to you in times like these, I know I do not come often, but I am in need of a friend.

Meta: Why come to me, then?

Ego: There are certain hours of the night, when none but the two of us are awake.

Meta: Go ahead then, torture me, what is on your restless heart? I shall be once again, your companion for the night…

Ego: Why is it that you always make me feel guilty for what I am doing?

Meta: Never mind, talk…or rather think, if that is what you please.

Ego: I need somebody to talk to, there are certain things I wish I could voice, certain things that only you know of…

Meta: I know.

Ego: I want to be able to have the bond we have with somebody else, to be able to feel this connection where I don’t need to say things out loud for them to be understood. I want to be able to be alone in somebody else’s company, and yet, I feel greedy for thinking about forcing this upon somebody, you know? I know you know… Do you think it’s fair to ask for such thing?

Meta: It’s nothing but what you make of it.

Ego: How selfish is it to expect somebody to be present, unconditionally, at times where even you would rather be left alone?

Meta: So is that what you are asking for? Someone to be by your side at times you feel alone?

Ego: Yes, or maybe no, you know better than I do. There are certain things I want to be said without being subject to that paralyzing fear of judgement. I want to ask questions, and receive answers, and I want to enjoy trivial matters, and these are things I cannot ask from you.

Meta: I can sense greediness in your desires.

Ego: Aren’t we all greedy? It’s easier to receive rather than give. I may be foolish, or idealistic in what I am about to say, but I am ready to give back moments like that.

Meta: And yet, I am the only one who hears your profound thoughts.

Ego: Certain things are better left untouched, I know I am contradicting myself, but you and I believe that honesty is better left out at certain times. You and I often desire somebody to be completely honest with us, and yet you know every truth doesn’t have to be spoken. Because when you put your trust in someone, you do not want them to hurt you.

Meta: Don’t you think being hurt is for a greater good? Don’t you want to strive for a better version of yourself? And who else but a good friend to point out what you need to fix?

Ego: You are the only person I would allow to do so.

Meta: Maybe you should tell me what you think a good friend is.

Ego: Honest and not hurtful, present but not invasive, inspirational but not controlling.

Meta: You seem rather sure of yourself, but your words are evasive, confused. Are you really confident about your needs, or shall I say desires? Aren’t you projecting an idealized version of yourself onto a hypothetical person you are not even sure to find someday?

Ego: So what you are saying is that I should let go of what I need?

Meta: What I am saying is that there are compromises to be made, just as we are not perfect, other people are not, there will always be something missing, let’s just say you found a friend, a companion if you prefer, what if both of you needed one another to listen, one of you should make sacrifices. And it’s only fair if both of you did, because you see, when a bond is created between two people, equality is to be established. And let us be honest, for once, what you want is somebody to distract you from coming to me begging questions that have yet to be answered, you desire a companion to act as a witness to whatever at a certain time you considered being significant and what you need is finding somebody that will share the same principles, the rest will ensue, soon enough, certain thoughts that only existed between you and I will free themselves from this invisible space. You should know that no one is born perfect, as what you consider being perfect is only perfect to you, and that friendship is not innate, it is built upon shared doubts and sacrifices as well as moments of joy.

Ego: I wouldn’t want to let go of you either.

Meta: It is not about letting go, but prioritizing when there are greater things at stake. Humans after all need to touch upon the insignificant profane, otherwise their lives would be hostile, tasteless, and a friend’s value is found when they are able to bring guiltless enjoyment, without altering your own principles. As for me, I will always be there for you, at times when no one else is awake but you. There is no truer friend than the friend you have in me, for you and I are the same. 


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intriguing!
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