You know how there are these times in life when you are just so confused?
That's how I feel. Confused.
Didn't know where to go for help. And it's quite absurd, I'm just 15. Life is supposed to be simple for me. Its supposed to be school and friends and family and all things happy. Well, I realized long back it wasn't going to be that way.
The thing is, well from what I've realized, I let others take over on my life very easily. I'd rather live on that decision someone else has made for me. I let my happiness be a subject of other people's happiness. My important decisions, the one that are close to my heart, they are always tinted by what my loved ones are going to say or think.
Yes, it is true I need my friends or my family to take over sometimes. I need their support because they guide me through my rough patches. But ultimately, it is me who has to live my life. I am a free spirit. I have come into this world alone and I will depart alone. No one in the whole world can dictate upon me the image of how my life is supposed to be. I will make and break my life. I do not need to fear what society expects out of me. I'm not here to prove to them how amazingly unique I am, how amazingly unique every being who has walked on this planet is.
I have decided to live by my rules. I know inside my heart what is wrong and what is right. I know my life is a mess, like any other teenager's would be. But I am going to sort it out. I going to live one day at a time. I am going to be happy.
I was given this life because I am strong enough to live it.