I hope the next time you fall in love, you'll do it without holding back.
I hope you don't have to calculate your every move thinking you might overdo it. I hope you'll forget about those how-to-make-someone-like-you videos and articles, and stop using them. I hope you'll never ask anyone on how to keep your shit together whenever you want to just pour everything in his cup. Go on. Fill it, darling.
I hope you won't be afraid of laying all your cards on the table. I hope you'll be able to tell him your deepest and darkest secret. I hope he'll see the beautiful woman made out of regrets, wounds, and wrong choices in boys. I hope he'll accept all your imperfections and I hope he'll see how they made you perfect in a way.
I hope you'll sleep in peace every night without the fear of waking up the next day that the person you try so hard to keep is already gone. I hope you'll never doubt someone's intention again and get disappointed because your negative intuition is right all along. No, I hope you don't.
I hope you don't listen to sad songs anymore, or maybe if you do, you'd think about sad memories, of the times you were moping and dawdling then you'd laugh about them because once you were so miserable and alone, yet one day the table will turn and everything will skyrocket to euphoria.
I hope there will be no almost's, what if's, and if only's. I hope you'll find someone who is as brave as you to risk for love. I hope that the next person you'd jump the cliff for will hold your hand and do it with you wholeheartedly. I hope he'll be man enough to commit and will never leave you hanging, hungry and begging for more.
I hope the next night you'll get drunk, he is there watching over you. I hope there are no more unreplied drunk texts and unanswered drunk calls. I hope the next time you smoke, he will be there to scold you and take the cigarette from your hand. I hope you'll drink again to celebrate, not to commemorate your dead relationship by crying while vomitting. I hope someone's going to take you home next time.
I hope you'll only cry again because of happiness, but we both know that's impossible, so instead, I hope you'll cry next time for the right person. I hope you'll never waste your tears again for people who will only leave you empty, lost and shattered into pieces. I hope you'll never have to go through again the most painful process of moving on and letting go. I hope he'll stay this time.
I hope the next time you fall in love, you'll finally give your all and you'll receive more in return. I hope your 'I love you's don't turn into frequent 'I miss you's and 'I wish you were here's. I hope his I love you's don't turn into a pile of broken promises and betrayals. I hope they won't sound like they have no choice but to say it back.
The next time you fall in love, I hope he's going to be the last.