-Another day on the island , I wake up not knowing what to do to get out of here . for whole 2 weeks I still try to get an answer for all of the questions that haunts me every moment , why . why did I do this ? why didn't I just stayed at home and stopped dreaming ? why did this happen to me ? I try to stop thinking but I can't .. I'm haunted .. but I'm still alive ! this means that there's something else I should do .. I don't even know what but I'll figure out .
Today is Thursday !! I used to hangout with my friends 2 weeks ago but now I have no friends ,, no girlfriend . though I never had one or wanted to .. I never wanted to be ignored by someone I didn't want anyone to leave me maybe that's why I didn't try to have a girlfriend but now I'm really alone with nothing to live for .
I decided not to give up but what to do ? I had nothing but the SOS so I looked for any paper or something but when I walked out this morning I didn't believe what I saw !! about hundred bottles washed up on the shore . seems I'm not alone here ,, I didn't know how I'm feeling I was happy because I wasn't alone but a little bit afraid too ,, what if this man wasn't kind ? what if he was dangerous ? he should be after all ,, I gotta escape !! but before I move I heard him shouting , I looked suddenly but I didn't see anything ! am I hallucinating ? I don't know anyway ,, all I know is that I must run now , run to nowhere !
Today I woke up feeling like this is the last day on this island ,, maybe this is according to the dream I had ! I believe in dreams anyway ,, I dreamed that Ellie came here ,, Ellie is my best friend she's the one I always tell her everything about myself . she's the only one I accept to be like a clown infront of her just to smile , I was too afraid to tell her that I love her cause I believed that she'll leave me like everybode else but I swear that if she came back I'll tell her and I will never waste any minute without her .. but what will get her here ? I don't know but I know that I had many things in the past that I didn't realize that was important or maybe because I was afraid to do many things that could make me happier to be ready so sing one of my best songs that's called I lived for Onerepublic , to be ready to say : "I owned every second that this world could give" ,, but actually I didn't realize what I had ,,
I decided to walk to the highest part of the island and looked around it was really large ,, I looked out to sea I saw an english ship !! but it was so far ,, what can I do now this is my last chance . there's no second chances in life , suddenly I climbed down the moountain and cut down some trees and made a small boat , the ship was getting closer maybe this is what saved some time for me ,, after 3 hours I finally finished the boat , the ship stopped moving not too far from here so I went towards it to get my second chance .
when I got to the ship the helped me to climb the ship , I knew that they were going to an island not far from here but they won't go because of some troubles between the crew and the captain ,, what a luck !
my first day on the ship was really hard cause Im not good in social stuations , so I went to an empty room where I can finally have a bed to sleep in , but there was no bed n that room ,, I'm really lucky .
my second day I tried to know some people I was like Alice in wonderland , I couldn't even eat they were very aggressive I was really afraid of them ,, I decided not to eat , cause actually I am the one who will be eaten !!
but I can't deny that they were very generous , they gave me new clothes and some water , one cup as I remember ,, very generous !!
that day I talked to three persons two of the were very unkind but the third was really great
" Hey , can I talk to you ? "
" Of course , man "
" what's your name ? "
" My name is Adam , and you ? "
" I'm Jake from LA "
" what got you here ? "
" It's a long story , I was chasing a dream so real but it turned into a nightmare "
" I don't know what is the dream or what happened , but all I know is that dream and expectations always have a dark flip side of disappointment , in this part you choose what to do "
" I had no other choices "
" You have now , it's not over yet "
the man was very wise he looked like that , his long beared and his black eyes give him the look of a great man as he really was ..
his words gave me hope to continue even if this means that I will lose more I will never stop but I gotta go home first , I must do many things , I gotta talk to Ellie , tell my many friends what they mean to me , they're 4 by the way , read my comics and this is the most important thing
four days passed , every day I go to Adam he became my best friend now that's actually cause he's the only one here but whatever I told him my story and he gave me some advice , he told me to continue but first go home to get anyone with me and surely I will choose Ellie , tell my friends that you're a dreamer , and read my comics first of all
I learned many things from Adam , I think that I will never forget him and I'm sure that I will miss him and his wise words , my last day on the ship was really hard to remember , all I remember is the last word that was said by Adam , he said " go and find yourself " I didn't understand what he said but I had more troubles than this word ! how will I go to LA from Boston now ? I didn't know but I walked in the crowded streets where I met David my friend , actually we haven't been talking for a while , about 4 years but whatever he didn't recognise me but I talked to him and asked for his help , he told me that the train to LA will set off after 3 hours then he left without paying for the coffee he bought for himself , what a great friend !
I went to the train station , I could book a ticket with the money Adam gave to me what a great man , I think that he has never met such a good friend like David cause he would commit suicide !
After 2 hours of waiting , I'm finally home ! , I went to the kitchen first and ate everything I found in the fridge , after eating I went to the bed , finally I will sleep I charged my mobile and I found a surprise , I'm really important to all my friends they missed me very much that they didn't even call !
I slept maybe for two days I don't know but I'm sure that I slept for a long time , about 6 hours !
I woke up because of the ringing phone , it was Ellie , I was very sad because she didn't ask about me
" Hi "
" Jake !! finally answered "
" Finally called !! "
" I'm so sorry but you disappeared did you travel as you were joking "
" Joking ? yes I travelled "
" Really ? it should've been funny "
" Funny ? oh yeah it was very funny that I forgot everything I used to do "
" What's wrong with you ? "
" I'm fine "
" No , you're not "
" Ok , I'm not fine , you know more "
" Surely I do " she said laughing , trying to change my mood
" You have no idea "
" What are you saying ? what happened to you ? you're not Jake "
" Really ? at least I'm not the one who doesn't know that he wants , I'm not the one who is afraid to say what he is really feeling inside , see how long we've been talking , you never said what you really although it's obivious . you want me close but not too much "
" What are you saying ? "
her only reply was ending the call , I didn't call back ! I don't know how I said that but I know that when I talk to her I only say what I'm really feeling , maybe this is the best thing about talking to her but the worst too .
she should've been waiting me to call her but I was surely gonna make it worse .
A week passed , it was very boring without her I talked to my friends who pretended that they had missed me and I pretended that I believe them !!
" Hey buddy where have you been ? " asked Tony one of my best friends , 3 weeks ago I used to ask him about everything but now I know that I can do anything I need , I survived !
When I got home , I went to my room and started looking for anything to read from my books , notes and comics .. I found my old notes ! ohhh I can't believe , I've been looking for it for days !
"I don't need any help from anyone but I need them !! strange feeling cause they let me down but I really can't live alone , I love Ellie but I don't know if she has the same feelings , I don't care after all she'll never love such a stupid guy "
I don't know why I wrote this 5 weeks ago in my notes but all I know is that I've changed ! I know now that I'm not stupid guy , I'm a survivor , a dreamer . but I still don't know if she loves me or not but all I have to do is wait .. fate is coming anyway .
I slept early that day not knowing what happened when I slept , but I knew next morning when I woke up I found many notifications on my phone but the most important was a facebook message from her ! she told me that she didn't understand me , but if I'm sad she won't be happy even if her dreams came true !
I sent her a message blaming her not to ask about me when I was at my worst then I went out and left my phone I went to a near cafe where I always go when I'm stressed , I wondered why didn't she ask ? what was she doing ? I began to take everything like we're a couple !!
when I returned home I found her saying that she's sorry and I don't understand anything ! I wanted to meet her even though I don't know what to say but I asked her and she accepted !!
Thursday night , just Ellie and I standing in scilence for 5 minutes
" What happened to you ? your face , your hands the're badly injured !! where have you been ? "
" When I told you that I'm travelling to the island I wasn't joking ! this was my dream to continue My grandfather's journey and know what happened "
" Seriously ? a dream changes your life ? "
" We live to dream ! "
" Whatever , what happened ? "
" There was a bad storm and the ship sank but I survived to an island and I came back in a ship "
" Well , why are you sad then ? "
" Cause you let me down "
" Me ?? I never let you down "
" When I asked you to come with me and you didn't accept "
" I couldn't !! why can't you believe ? "
" Why ?! are you asking why !! what if I was killed or got hurt you wouldn't even know ! you will be thinking that I'm playing video games "
" Stop it !! can you just shut up , you don't understand anything ,, do you know what are you saying ?! "
" I don't know , I'm really confused "
" Confused ? you never been confused talking to me ! "
" Maybe because I'm not the same or I don't have the same vision "
" Vision for what ? "
" I don't see you like I used to , I don't understand you , you know everything about me but I really don't understand you "
" Can you explain ? "
" I love you "
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" I've loved you since we were just kids when we were playing , I've been loving you for a long time , I tried to tell you but I was afraid of losing you .. I really tried to do anything for you and I did what I could do "
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" I know I'm very stupid , I ruined every thing .. I'm really sorry "
2 minutes passed like 2 days !! 2 minutes of scilence that killed me , I was about to leave but ,,
" I love you too , I love you too much , I was afraid too but now I know that this is the right time to tell you "
I think that this is the happiest moment in my life , the best thing that happened to me from the best person I've ever met ..
I wanted to stay in this moment for the rest of my life ,,
I didn't know what to say .. scilence was the best thing !!
After a long time don't know how long but it passed in few seconds
I told her that I'm travelling after two days and she's coming with me and she accepted ..
After two days ....
We were on the ship to the meant island it took about 4 days to reach there . when I got there I didn't know what to do but I rememberd my grandfather's words .. he wrote a secret code and I managed to solve it ,, it was very easy ,, about 5 weeks of thinking and working on it !!
" To find the truth you gotta lose many things that you thought one day it was imprtant , you have to be ready to lose everything .. everything is clear but we don't want to see , find what you want in the big island .. "
some lines of my grandfather's notes , I knew the island from another note he wrote but I don't know why I always remember this ,, did he mean me ? am I the chosen one ? I don't know but I will wait cause fate is coming anyway
Ellie was very worried but she didn't know what we're gonna do next .. what if this was just a dream ? what if there's no secret ! she slept early that night . left me puzzled and worried but what can she do ?
3 days passed on the island not knowing what to do but I'm sure that we're gonna leave we were just wasting time !! but I rememberd Adam's words when he told me not to give up and look again for all the things that I have ,, so I decided not to leave ..
We had some stuff so we don't get bored in the coming days , some of my favorite comics , mikey , superman and the big island !!
" did he mean the comics ?! "
" I don't know ! I hope so "
we spent hours reading the comics again with her , I found a map of an island
" Is it the same island ? "
" Maybe !! "
we went to the mountain that was mentioned in the comics where the treasure was .
I spent many hours searching but I didn't find anything
" Is it a joke ? " she said as she looked disappointed
" No , there must be something here ! "
" You're insane "
" Haa ? "
" Why did you get me here ? "
" I'm looking for the secret "
" There's no secret ! why can't you realize ? "
" So why did you come with me ? "
" Not to disappoint you "
" So you're not doing now , haa ? "
she was very stressed then she screamed " I don't know why I got here but all I know is that you're crazy !! I hate you , I want to go home "
I was shocked !! what's going on here ?? millions of questions I want to ask but I can't ,,
I heard another scream from somewhere else I knew that it was the secret !!
I left her asking about what's happening as I didn't want to talk to her so I climbed down the mountain to the place where the voice was coming from ,, I was running too fast because I knew that this was my chance to prove that dreams are always true
When I went there I didn't find anything but a paper as there was a place mentioned in it when I went there I found the biggest surprise ,,
" Adam !! what're you doing here ? "
" I'm waiting "
" For what ? "
" For you " he said it happily he seemed very pleased
" But how did you know all of this ? "
" You didn't even asked me who I am when we first met , so let me introduce myself , I'm your grandfather's best friend , he told me everything and told me that you'll come and when you come your life will be changed .. everything in it ,
your feelings
your style
your friends
you "
I was very excited not knowing what will happen
" You believed in something , you gave it the power .. you're a believer , you followed your dreams . now the adventure you had changed everything about you "
" Adam , I uhh , I don't know what to say I did what I need "
" So you didn't ask what was the secret or what was the surprise"
" I really don't care , I know now that money isn't everything , it's all about to know what you were born for . I survived , loved , did everything . I found myself !!! " I said it not knowing how I got these words , those were his words !!
He smiled and said " Now you're the man who can do it "
" Do what ? "
" Now you're the discoverer of the secret island "
" What ? "
" This island isn't known it's the biggest island that was lost hundreds of years ago , the Greeks lived on it and made a great civilization here ,, you can go to America and tell them about everything and you'll be one of the most famous people in the world "
I didn't believe what he said ,, after the pain and the disappointment I finally have everything now , fame , money , my love ! ooh Ellie I listened to her voice calling me , he looked at me and said " Go ahead you've done what you are supposed to do . you're free ! "
I came back to her ,, as soon as she saw me she started saying sorry as I was smiling she said what happened I told her everything and she didn't believe then I showed her the real map and the boat that Adam showed me ..
" Now we're king and queen "
" We were always "
she told me as we were dancing to my favorite song : Domino - Jessie J
" Dirty dancin' in the moonlight take me down like I'm a domino "
Now we decided to stay on the island for a while to be alone in our world after we did what we wanted to , I found the secret , she found the love and the adventure and now we have a bright future waiting !!
now I can say
" I owned every second that this world could give , I saw so many places and things that I did . and with every broken bone
I swear I lived "