What ???what are you saying , she shrieked .It was her reaction when she listened to me .The people at the cafe start staring at me as if I have done something wrong to her.I gave her a glass of water and asked to maintain her composure .
After she had water she said to me ,"why are you doing so ,what is the need for that .Didn't you thought of me before taking such harsh decision". Her voice quivering with pain and grief , hands shivering .She was deeply wounded by my decision ,but it was necessary for me to tell her before leaving.
"It is necessary for me to go I have worked hard to get this opportunity and I can't let it go like this ",I tried to explain her but to no avail as she was staring in space with tears in her eyes.
"But why can't you stay here and complete your studies that are lot more of opportunities here and what will happen us ,what about promises that you made ,what about our future,what about WE ". she said as tears rolling down of her eyes.I tried to hug her but she retreated ,again looking into free space .I didn't understand how to explain her that it was necessary for me to go .Before thinking of the future of the WE I have to think about the future of I ,without well developed I's a WE cannot sustain .
Since a I is the basic building block of WE I have to grow first in order to insure the well being of WE .A bunch of futile I's is going to yield useless WE and I was not going there to enjoy ,I will work hard there so that I can achieve something ,so that when I will return we can live all the dreams that we have seen, so that I can give you all the happiness of life . As these thoughts were dangling in my mind she rised from her seat and jumped off the balcony of the cafe .It was so quick that it took me a couple of minutes to understand what happened. When I reached to her I tried to wake her up but she was long gone. A tissue was there in her hand saying ,"Go live your life, develop your I". Suddenly I waked up and found myself in bed in the middle of midnight ,petrified ,forehead drenched with sweat. Now I was thinking of my meeting with her tomorrow where I was going to tell her about my selection at a Japanese Institute for higher studies.