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Maybe I'm just trying to hold my sanity by comforting myself that it is okay, that I am alright because I should be.
I did not pass the test that I've been dreaming to take and pass ever since I was in grade school.
I did not pass UPCAT. And as a consistent honor student-- it made me feel stupid and disappointed, but only for a few minutes.
I wanted to cry my heart out. I wanted to get lost in my own world for hours and then force myself to sleep to forget this melancholy. But I can't. I don't want to be looked at with pity. I need to show that I am strong and I am okay because I should be.
I badly want to hug my parents and tell them 'I am sorry' for being such a disappointment and a failure. But I'm afraid a slump might build up in my throat first pushing tears to escape my eyes before I could even tell them that.
I am sorry to everyone.
I am sorry to myself.
I think I did not do my best. Because if I did, I would have succeeded.
But still, to keep me sane, here's what I've been telling myself.
I only failed Math. Stupid Math.
I only failed one subject, not entirely the test.
In the end, I refuse to admit that I am a failure. I am not.
I just messed up and it's okay. It should be.
one of the saddest and loneliest feeling in the world is not being needed by anyone
31there's a time when we and our childhood friends played together for the last time & nobody knew it.
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