I want to be able to tell the people close to me
That I'm not ok, that I'm not happy
I want to tell them how I really feel
That I'm lonely and almost every smile wasn't real
I want to be able to tell them the truth
That it's been this way since my youth
And no matter what I tried, I couldn't find the strength
So I ended putting everyone at arms length
I want to tell them, I really do
I want them to know what really is true
And why can't I, tell me why
I can't bring myself to do it, no matter how hard I try
Siblings, parents, and even my best friend
I guess I'll keep it with me until the end
I'll be ready one day, or at least I hope
Until then I must find ways to cope