I was that girl,
The one who's confusing as hell,
A girl full of fire but can also freeze hell
I was the girl who never got over the past
I am still the girl who's afraid of things that last.
I second guess my decisions
Not because of confusion
But because I've got no trust
No trust of myself to do something good
No trust of myself to not always be crude.
I can be feisty
I can be naughty
I can be charming
But be warned; I can be alarming.
I can never answer with a yes
And never can I say no, less
Every decision I make
Is a foregone mistake
Because I was the girl
Who never held a pure pearl.
A mistake I am
A mistake I will always be.
But do not underestimate me.
For a girl can do so much wrong
But I was always the girl with guts of a gong
I may second guess what I do
But I can also strike when it stand as true
For my morals are still intact
Even if my mind is whacked.
I can love you
Then hate you
I can see you
Then ignore you.
I can be anything
But I was never something.
I was a girl afraid of myself
Of decisions I can never help
I ignore most of the pain in my life
But I get annoyed at myself most time.
I was that girl who was always silent
With a mind at peace but sometimes violent
I was that girl who hates herself
For she can't speak her mind so well
I was that girl who whispers promises
To a sleeping stranger to prevent calluses
Calluses that appear to people I love
Because this girl is not as pure as dove.
When one day you try to persuade her
That she means the world to you
And that you actually want her
Just don't ask anything
Go marry her without her knowing.
Because this... me,
I the type of girl
Who goes crazy at the sight of tender
But then I can be mushy
Because I was that girl thought to be lovely.