"Everyone falls in love ,not today ,neither tomarrow but one day everyone will and you can't control it "
It was back in school days where every love story sprouts.Mine was a little different it is not like regular ones. It happened when the definition of LOVE for me was the love of our parents and those we saw in bollywood movies. I had no idea what it is to experience in real life .As said you cant know what destiny has planned for you and about love even gods cant possess power to control it.
what happened with me in those days I still dont know and when I realise it ,it was gone far enough that I couldn't do anything to get it back.
we were in same class for last 6 years before this happened ,i was only knwoing that she was my class mate .her name was Supriya A cute, short girl with chubby cheeks and curly hair ,when she smiles one can see her dimples very clearly .
God wasn't so generous on me I wasn't fair in complexion but I was cute ,everyday we came to school to study ,play .chat all those which we do back in school days ,
It was an usual day ,we were chatting general stuffs ,we never miss a single day of school unless we were ill ,we enjoy more at school rather than home. One of my friend asked that we came to school daily ,what is the reason behind this why cant we just sit at home watching tv , the answer was same we like school better than home except the classes and we love it when any teacher was absent it was like dream come true.
Everyone of us was explaining our apt reasons for coming to school and when they asked me the same question i told them same like others did except the last one i didnt know from where it came to my mind I told that " mai to uske liye aata hu " I came to see her daily and this was it the moment when you gave ur friends chance to make fun of urself in case of me it lasts about 4 years after this incident .Everyday when i came to school they all tease me by saying you came for her ,go meet her ,I always told them to not say it or do it in a low tune.
I used to see her in free time when she was playing with her friends,chatting in class ,the kind of face she made when teacher scolds her,this all was captivating
her way of expression ,i was bound to her charm,her cuteness ,her ravishing innocence.when everyone around you keep saying same thing all over the time it find a place in the mind,so I also started to think that I also came everyday to see her and later i admitted that to my friends.it make me happy i wasn't knowing what is so great about it but i was happy
sometimes things go wrong too,one of my friends told this to someone else which scared the hell out of me ,my heart was beating very fast and i was feeling very thirsty ,I was nervous later i asked that guy what he knows beacuse if he had told this to someone else or any teacher i would have got my ass handed to me ,but for him it meant nothing he told me like he didnt care ,i felt relief and abused my friend in front of him but i was happy from inside.
Days passed by and everday i saw her more beautiful than other day ,whenever i saw her my heart started beating rapidly ,for a year or more I only used to stare her so by somewhere safe so she couldnt see me staring her . sometimes our eyes met but i turn myself away I still do that ,i dont have the guts to look someone back in eye.even if a single day she didnt came to school my whole day got ruined ,my day start by seeing her and ends by that to when i reach home u just wanted to sleep so that in some time there will be next day and i can see her again.
Now I was mature enough to know what it is ,what is all these feelings ,happiness whenever i saw her and how i feel bad when i didnt see her.It was LOVE and i realised that I wanted more than staring at her ,i wanted to be with her ,i wanted to talk to her everytime ,look at her everytime and tell her how beautiful she is ,wipe her tears ,make her happy anyhow .It was exam time and she sat near me may be god was giving me chance to be with her .I hepled her with all i can ,told her every answers she wasn'nt knowing and yeah i got my result she praised me alot in front of her friends and got third place in the class , i got second place by as slightest margin though i was happuy because she was happy .i decided to tell her how i feel about her , what i am feeling from last 3 years ,how much i wanted to be with her ,she completes me .it was last day of school and vacations were about to start ,by gathering all my courage to express my love to her i went to school but she didnt came and i was back to home with my untold feeling for her
the two months of the vacations were like two centuries i lived ,i love vacations but when you are so eager to be with someone you just cant wait somehow i spent my vacations by keeping my self busy.
After waiting for a long time the vacations were over except i think no one was so excited to go back to school ,i was ready to propose her ,tell her the way i feel but she didnt showed up at first day many of my friends didnt ,it was common no one loves to come back to school just after having a long vacations, I went for seven days hoping that she will show up but she didnt ,our classes were started regularly now i was a little scared what happened to her ,why isnt she coming? so i asked one of her friends about her and what she told broke me down she left the school and went someother school in the town . I somehow managed my self not to cry there and left i couldnt believe it that she is not going to be with us ,how could i live without seeing her ,it was an integral part of my life which was just snatched away from me . LOVE comes with a price i.e seperation to which i was totally unknown.I didnt know what to do if we were not meant to be toghether, why we came so close so that it hurts me most when she left ,may b she didnt felt the same way i did ,may be she was unaware of my feelings for her .I tried to find her in her school but all was vein the timing wasnt right and no one can go to her home asking for her especially we boys so i finally accepted it that i have to liv without her in school and there was hope because she was still in town .After one year or more we ran into each other ,our eyes met again and this time i didnt turned away and looked directly in her eyes and when she went other way she still was looking at me by turning back I was not that happy in last 1 year not even on my birthday.
Old memories started flashing in front of me and all those feeling i kept buried inside me started coming out of my heart ,When something is meant to happen no matter how hard you try to stop it ,it will happen and if not so try as hard as you can to make it happen it wont ,unfortunately neither luck nor destiny was on my side.Later on my friend told me that she is commited to someone else I wanted to tell her that" she was going to regret this and now there is nothing she can do about it because its too late all she can do is be with him and crappy and dissappointing relationship that will never be as happy as one she could have with me "
NO ONE CAN LOVE HER MORE THAN ME AND IF THERE IS SOMEONE WHO CAN DO IT I WOULD HAVE HAPPILY LET HER GO.