2018 is a year of harvest and lost
A year of great success and a sudden downhill of it all
Gained some achievements
But lost my treasures on the limelight
I lost the ones I least expected
I lost my reputation that I tried so hard to protect
But the worst of all...
I tried so hard looking for myself that I got lost along the way
Of all the negativity, tears and agony
It all has an end. It may not be now but soon it will be.
So,
Today I let go of the past
I will not dwell on what has happened a long time ago
For I am not who I am today if it wasn’t of the past
I am not my mistakes even if others think otherwise
Today I let go of the doubts
Of all the betrayal, I need to trust myself
When everyone turned their back on me
Doubting yourself is the biggest betrayal that could ever be done to you
So love and trust yourself despite every failure
Today I let go of the grudges
The hardest one of them all
It is not easy but I have to...I needed to
I cannot live every single day with a heavy heart...with that monster in my mind
I cannot take a step without it dragging me down
So I may live on without a trace
Today I let go of it all
The mistakes I made is a lesson I learned the hard way
I will keep holding on as I welcome 2019 with a better version of me.