It hurts....

It hurts....doesn't it?? When you come close to someone. when you start loving them,when you give them your everything and they just say "you are a good friend" and go and love someone else right in front of your face.

It feels worse than losing a friend. That someone you made  feel special but they just take that love and give it to someone​ else and you just stand there thinking why did I do this? Why did I give my heart to someone who just replaced it with her breaking heart and went after someone else. It hurts to know that you are just a pawn while she has her own king. Why can't I be the king she wants?

It hurts...... when you in every possible way try to talk to her and make her feel special in everyway. And they don't even make an effort to ask how your day has been?they don't even take the time to message a "hi" and I like a fool sit over there waiting for that person to talk.

But I don't have the energy to lose someone again. That's why I am keeping quiet because I know you will walk right away from me if I tell you I love you. I know you will run away if I tell you I'm falling for you again. But I'm not the one who will run away from you no matter what happens.

It hurts..... knowing that I've done my best but I  just couldn't do the best you want....