I wanted to tell them it wasn't me. I wanted to tell them it was the monster inside me but how would they believe that? How would I explain that there is another entity in my body and it's getting bigger, stronger and angrier each day? How would I tell them that I just woke up being so mad at the world and now I can't contain it? How could I say sorry when I am always angry at every person around me? I shout, I throw things, I punch walls, I ignore calls and texts, I fake my smiles, I secretly hate conversations, and I don't like companion. I didn't want to be like this and I wanted to blame the world for making me miserable and unhappy. I wanted to blame my life and how fucked up it turned out because i'm tired hating myself for so long.
I just want to live but why does life takes every reason I want to keep?