Its hard when you realize that someone is becoming your need.Its hard when without them your interest in your work changes.Its hard when everything around you, which you disliked before too now becomes a challange for you to even think about.
Its hard when expression slowly turn into a repression.When you start to struggle for even knowing your purpose in present without them.
Its hard when if you don't meet someone for a interval of time,a kind of emptiness arises in your aura.You start feling insecure,unfit and dwelled by negativity in every of thoughts even if you were capable of utilising your power.
Its hard when you just wanted to contact someone for hearing their voice just because you were not able to be near them and feel their vibes but when you finally call them :Alas! They just stay as a casual hardcore not even feeling a thud to talk to you just to ask how you are? Or to say that they missed you.
You find they are mundane to hear you.You find they didn't had a suffocation without you.You find they are ordinary and meeting with you isn't a big excitement for them.
Its much harder when the person you did grapple to feel once,for whome your normal routine has been disturbed,with whome you think you did travel the universe ,beacuse of whome you left your compassion,your close buddies didn't got even a reaction without you.
And then when you feel about yourself,the time you had wasted for them,the feelings you have kept for them kills you inside,your body feels the sensation of outsider with your own mind.You diverge with your thought processing of emotions and a big deep discreet becomes a pain for you.
And finally to relieve this connection that you had developed on your own becomes much more convulsing by now and you feel despair of your own body and connection..And you start struggling for a mere peace......