her and everything

I am wearing a bra right now, to punish myself. I am making me feel uncomfortable, and my back itch from its band, just to feel some discomfort.

I don't know why though

Actually I was thinking about her alot. I was stalking her, reading her posts, I even though she wrote about me, because it contained the word, 'previous friends'.

but maybe i was wrong.. maybe she was writing about her recent previous friends.

she is a long lost friend, i counted on. i loved her and never knew, she could leave me, ever.

i thought we were holding each other high, all the time, there for each other.. But maybe I was in delusion.

she left and moved on like nothing is wrong. she drank the blood of mystery and targeted my words of wisdom and seldom my heart for friendships and just lost me

and i will always say SHE LOST ME because she might always find people and friends in her life, but never will she ever find a nurturing caring and trust worthy AF friend like me.

Never Ever.

i guess that bra is my punishment to feel how holding on for nothing to get felt like...