It's past 1 a.m. in the morning, yet here I am awake
It's past the time I should be sleeping, yet I am here, eyes wide open
I can hear the sound of the raindrops falling on the roof of where I lie
I thought of the just gone night before this midnight
I was exhausted of yesterday's life
I felt drained of emotion when I read the conversations on my phone
Message received, message sent
Everyone gone
And I am still here
Do I care? Do I not?
I think both of it are contradicting inside me and yet again, I remained still
Thoughts are running wild in my mind right now but then, I keep still
I wanna close these eyes
Tomorrow, no --- I mean, later when the sun's up
I'll look around and feel forlorn
But then, I still have to wear the mask
The mask of both being real and being a pretender, both at the same time
Confusing
Surely it is, contradictions are like being in a battle I know I can't win
My mind's the real criminal
I then, shall close my eyes
Tomorrow, no --- later, is what I mean to say
The day must go on
I breathe yet again.
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