First is forever. At least that is what you believe in to. You are too careful. You don't want to get hurt. You don't want to make mistakes. You want everything to be perfect. You don't want to take a risk because you don't want to regret something. Maybe because you're the kind of person who don't forget. It's alright. You're not alone. Purity is something to be proud of, but taking chances isn't as bad as it seems.
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