Friendzone... Some people says it does not really exist. Some believes it does as they have experienced it. It's something that hurt many, silenced few, and broke lots of real-friendship relationships. I can't really say what is and what is not. But let us try to put ourselves in someone's shoes and see if this 'friendzone' is real.
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"Hi, I'm... Just a boy. You can think of me as ordinary as college boy who's struggling on daily life. As ordinary as I am, I would still say that my life is as colorful as rainbow. And then... I met her... Her, who shattered my ROYGBIV into GRIVBOY. Literally, grieving boy not because she has done something wrong to me but because she has done great things instead. You might wondering, it's quite complicated right? Well, it is indeed complicated. Everything seems so complicated between us... Oh, I forgot... There was never an us."
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Girl, forgive me for feeling this way;
I can't help it no matter how I try to put it away;
Girl, I ask you to hear me, would you?
I don't expect you to listen to me though.
I just need to say it all to you;
It's burning me inside, I need to let you know;
I'm liking someone other than you;
But nothing changed for I won't let you go.
I can't let you go, you know how I care for you;
We had moments we treasure and we will surely have some more;
I have you and we will always have each other;
In the end, I can't tell you for I still like you too.
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"Yes! I'm with someone else. I'm with someone I like but still liking this woman I just met. Call me selfish and greedy. Go on, for I also call myself that and even worse than that. I don't understand this feeling. I keep on asking almost all the why's and how's in this complicated world. But that woman... That woman had my heart flutters more than anybody else. I just can't let her go. I just can't even if it means to be just her friend."
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I'm falling for you. I think I really am;
But I can't let this slip out of my tongue;
These words are dying to be said to you;
But I must help it for it might hurt the two of you.
When I think of you, I can't help but smile;
I enjoy every minute we spend, it's hard to hide;
I told you we're friends but I want more than that.
For I don't see you as a friend but as the woman of my life.
I don't know how long I can keep as your friend;
I'm liking you more and more each passing day;
No matter how hard I try to keep you away,
I can't help but to be with you each day.
I know, you look at me as just a friend;
But I want more than that and I'm so afraid;
I don't want this little happiness I have to end;
So, I decided to remain to be your JUST ANOTHER FRIEND.
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"Selfish, playboy, greedy. Call me all you want, I don't deny it. Even if I wanted to but I can't deny it. I'm such a jerk as you may think, holding the girl I can't let go and adoring the woman I can't like, all at the same time... But what can I do? I'm just a boy who wanted to be happy with her love and smile with just her presence. I'm just a boy who wanted to live my life to the fullest. I'm just a boy who wants to hold on to this little happiness I so long. I'm just a boy indeed, who doesn't really know the difference of what's best from what's right. I chose the one I think is the best choice. I'm not saying I'm right for I'm really not. But still, I choose to continue loving her and to remain to be her just another friend."
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Friendzone... is usually a place where someone else put us in. A place we didn't chose. A place that hurt us. A dead-end of our hopeless romance. But this time, we've seen a friendzone from another side. A place that he chose. A place that gives him happiness. A safezone of his hopeless romance. A friendzone from the side of selfishness.
Selfishness... is usually seen as a bad thing. Well, it really is not a good thing. But sometimes, it's the only choice that could make you happy, and you're too afraid to let go of that happiness. Maybe... just maybe, people become selfish for things that could break them if they let go. Maybe... just maybe, people become so blind and drowned with the emotions they have. Maybe... just maybe, people really don't mean to be selfish at all but it just happened. Maybe... just maybe, people are naturally selfish.
Many will say that boy is selfish. But he is just a boy who made his choice. A choice he thought is the best for all. And the thing is, the best choice is not always the right one!
We all have the ability to choose. We always have choices. No matter what it is, we just need to be prepared for the consequences of the choices we made.
The question whether friendzone is real or not, I will leave that to your own definition of the word itself. As I've told you, we always have choices. Whether we choose to believe it or not, I'm sure... We all have our own reasons why.
This is a story about a friendzone from the side of selfishness. A choice he made. Would you say he is wrong? #czary042017