Every girl waits for her Prince Charles but in this real world no one gets her true love. I am also not the exception.I wanted to feel the warmth of his breath, the softness of his hand in my hand, wetness of the tear in my eyes while missing him, happiness in showering the care & affection on him and restlessness while waiting for him.
I just wanted to love, only love where there would not be any scope of any other feeling. For me love has no meaning , no definition , no limitation....I had a world of my own dreamland where there would be only me and he.
My "He" ... Even i had never visualized my "He" as it will just restrict the world i have created. I thought to accept him as he is. I wanted to be in love with his all bad habits and admire the goodness in him. The only thing which i wished could present in him was that he should understand expressions behind the words i speak. I wanted him to discover" yes" even if i say" no", i wanted him to understand that i need him whenever i say him "go away it ok". I wanted him to cuddle me when i am just out of my mind. I wanted him know that i love him alot despite i fight for each and every small things.
Finally I got my Prince Charles , I surrendered myself wholly to him but he never understood this. Even though he never understood how badly i need him i always asked him to enjoy without me. I changed myself not to impress him but to give him the best of me but he only praised never felt the feeling behind it. I many times fought with him but for his happiness and he always thought i wanted to go away from him. I was still very happy to see him happy because he was my "Prince Charles ".
I could have forgot when he said " Sorry i carried away don't know how it happens " . But when i asked him "Do you love me?" and he was just speechless. I realized it was only me in this relationship. He never loved me; it was just being with the girl who can do anything for him. What was i doing then with him? I found my world just goes ups and downs. I wish i could have not ignored my mind. I wish he could have said he loved me. I wish we could have stayed together not out of boundation just for love.
I cried i lament but i was still feeling i want him....He goes away by saying sorry and some practical words that "its just open relationship". He also said he love me after i asked him where i lag behind? But it seems all fake for me. How could now i trust him again so that i have to say stay with me, love me , dont go to other girl. If i have to say all this things then where is the question of love the divine love he use to talk about.....
I am only the leftover of him now. He went but his love is still in side me with the hope that "Perhaps he would have loved me....."