you vowed to try again
you said it would be worth it
not to see me cry.
you said you'd realized
how much you loved me
and how horrible it would be
to lose me.
You held the broken girl in your arms
slowly piecing her back together
with a strong but gentle embrace
and words that echoed promise
"Shhh, it's all okay, sweetie
I hate seeing you cry
it's all okay now"
You lifted her tear-stained face
and with the whole world in your eyes
you told her you loved her
that you wouldn't say goodbye
This time,
you were torn between me and yourself.
Always giving, never getting
like a candle, burning itself
so others can have light.
"I need time to sort myself out."
you said.
If only you could have come
to that wonderful realization
before you had drowned me
in your affection.
each stolen glance and warm embrace
crashing into me as I inhaled
letting the thought of us
break deeper into my mind
with each consecutive wave.
If only I had known
that loving you
would bring me
to a watery grave.
Every promise you made
All the plans you'd hoped for
The "I Love You"'s
that flowed from your lips
never without conviction.
All those hazy nights
you spent enveloping me
in your closeness
because your arms had a way
of holding me together
when I felt the stress
would tear me limb-from-limb
After all of that,
you chose yourself.
This time,
you watched me leave
with the taste of a bitter
goodnight
still on your lips
You didn't calm me
You didn't smooth my hair
You didn't hold me in your arms
You didn't let me cry
You didn't say you loved me
All you said,
was goodbye