Launchorasince 2014
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A Letter to the One I First Loved


I fell for it

I fell for you

Again

And again

And again


You swore to God that it would be different

That this was meant to happen

That we could conquer the world together


Then I did a stupid thing

I believed you


I am so sick of this cycle that I have been trapped in

Yes no yes no I don't know I really don't know


You treat me like a light-switch

On

I love you

Off

I'm in a dark place right now

On

I can do anything with you by my side

Off

We need time ALONE


I am done letting you control me

This is the last time I will ever let you trap me with your eyes

I will go blind if it means I can start feeling again

I will bathe in the most frigid of waters if it will erase the feeling of you on my skin

I will sever my own lips if it means I can forget the taste of yours


You have built me up time and time again

Just to bring me down with you


But it's not your fault...

When you first started building, you used your own blocks for my foundation

You never thought you would run out

But when that happened, you had nothing more to give

And the beautiful structure, built from you and me

Came crashing down

As it always has

And it always will


Until you get some more fucking blocks

Then it will start over again

The cycle of construction, love, and promises


I'm sorry for the next one who falls for you


Because you...

You need to fall for yourself