Lately..

Lately life for me has been out of the usual, but one thing never changes, one this is inevitable, that one thing that is the base of my life right now. I wake up everyday and I greet life with everything it has to offer, positive mind, positive vibes, positive life, yeah all of that. Then... then I have to go to university... That's when everything falls out of place, that's when everything becomes a nuisance, that's when my tolerance for life hits rock bottom, and I can't even tolerate a particle of dust on my dashboard, that's when my OCD hits me the hardest, hits me at all actually. I've been here and there, I've lived that life everyone talks about, that life that you only live once and "You'll always wish you can come back to", that's what they all say, but in my personal opinion I think I don't even want to go back, matter of fact I can't wait to get to the next chapter of my life, not because I'm eager, but because this part is making me sick. What's so great about college? Maybe my college just sucks? Or maybe humanity is just degrading just like the leftovers in my kitchen sink? I don't have answers, I wish I did, I try to get these answers but each time I come up with one, something happens the next day that makes the answer so invalid. You can sit there, read this, and say hey, it's just another college kid who doesn't like college, what's new? You cannot imagine the shift I face on a weekend, just the mere thought of waking up on a Thursday, and realizing I won't have to go to university for another three days is exhilarating! On and off with this, that's how it's been like lately...