A Khaas Bath & Lots More Presentation
Dear Love,
For the World, this is such an usual love story. A Boy and Girl were friends for a very long time. Invariably Boy falls in love with the Girl. Girl enters into a relationship with someone else. He fears losing her friendship if he confesses his love & she is not very smart to understand his feelings just by looking at his eyes... And the story continues...
Sweetheart do you ever realize what I am going through right now? People call it Pain and I call it Sweet Pain. I smile only because I am good at pretending. I listen to your stories just because I can look at your face all the while when you are talking. It hurts when I realize that when we are together & I play your favorite song on my guitar, I am not the guy who crosses your mind & you are the only one I can think about...
I wonder when did I fall in love with you in all these 16 years of our togetherness.... Is it when you used to share your chocolates with me which were gifted to you? Or Is it when you used to write my homeworks everyday after yours? Is it when you tease me and slap me back when I mocked anger? Or Is it when you look back to bid goodbye every day after college? Is it when you teach me enough just to ensure I get a 40 in all subjects and clear? Or Is it when you link me up with every girl in the classroom & make me feel like the biggest flirt ever? Is it when you slapped me hard in front of everyone when you caught me pull out a cigarette n start smoking? Or Is it when you were more tensed about my PU results than yours? Is it when you cried your heart out on losing that loser? (How dare he make you cry so much? *angrysmiley*) Or Is it when you moved into a different city for a 3 month Internship? I seriously have no clue about it...
It is like we have lived our lives together. My friends are your friends, your books are my books, my memories are your memories & your diary shall itself become my diary. We have traversed the same path all these years holding each other's hand. 16 years of friendship is not a Joke. Now I am so used to holding your hands and walking the path of life that I fear falling down & never getting up when one day you are no longer with me....
With 2 failed relationships, wrong choices, so many crushes, so much of confusion everytime, I still feel you are a lost kid reaching wrong hands in the process of reaching its mother. Am I the right one your are missing to realize? Or are you the wrong one I am holding on to? Life is sometimes a Big Puzzle. Every time you make a wrong choice or get hurt, I am the one who vipes your tears. Don't you think if you decide to walk the journey of your Life with me, I will ever let you cry? I would prefer Death to that.
Why don't you girls like good guys? Unkempt hair, a cut on the face, tight muscles, careless attitude, dreamless present may look Cool but is that what you want your husband to be like? What is the problem with the good guys? Have you ever imagined your Life in my absence? I dunno if I could ever do that. Whenever you tell me about your new crush, I smile because he makes you smile... I always believe that one day you will realize that our relationship is something beyond and I am not just your "Faltu", " Loser" friend.
With the same hope and belief, I am writing this 10th letter to you. It's been 10 years since I started writing a letter for you on this day every year. Through these letters, I pour my feelings out, I speak to you and most importantly I love you more and more. This is just another letter which will never reach you like my past 9 letters. Everytime I think of giving it to you, the fear of losing you takes control and thrashes all the little hopes left. "You are a Loser", my heart tells me sometimes. "But that is much better than losing her", my Brain argues. I take shelter in between the heart and mind. I know your phone will be busy for the next couple of minutes or you will cut my call to talk to me later. So wishing you a very Happy Birthday My Love :) Wishing you loads and loads of happiness. This is yet another letter which will remain safe in my cupboard and my heart & will never reach you....
Loads of Love,
Your Best Friend