Dear mom
I miss you. It's been 8 years and I can't believe this longing I feel remains. I'm almost 18 and I missed a lot of things we do and half of my life I could only remember memories both clear and blurry. I miss our plans, mother-daughter conversations and especially your warm hugs and kisses. One night I had a dream of you and I was crying of joy that I never felt before that made me write this. Well I guess I'm still you're little girl.
After you're gone, sister and I had a lot of "first" things without you. First birthday, Christmas, graduation and many more. As sad as it sounds but we found ourselves grow and in the process of being independent. It was really hard mom, it still is sometimes but hey life goes on like they say.
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Dear Mom,
I need you. Life's been very tough and I could really use some motherly advice. Do you remember when I always tell you that my classmates makes fun of me? I was that quiet girl in class and everyone knows I don't fight back. I was afraid. I really was afraid that people might not like me so even though it's hard I try my best to fit in. What happened? Well, nothing. Fitting in was not a good idea and not speaking up was the worst. But you don't have to worry mom. You always told me to defend myself and speak up so I did. I never let people step on me and I am braver and wiser than I was before.
There are just times that I need you. Some days I needed a hug or maybe some words to keep me going. There are days where I feel nothing and I just don't know what to do anymore. Sometimes I just wonder how my life is going to be if you are still with us. When those days come I just keep in mind my dreams that I've always told you because I want to make you proud. I'll keep pushing forward and I'll face tomorrow with my head up even if it scares me. I promise you that mom.
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Dear Mom,
I love you, I could never ask for anyone to replace you. You are perfect in your own ways and I couldn't be more grateful. You truly are a gift from God and I wouldn't ask for anything else. I remember when we used to argue every time we have an event at school because I really hate it when you do my makeup but now I am obsessed with it. My sister and I have a huge collection of makeup and brushes and now I understand why you own so many lipsticks before. Swiping a lipstick on my lips really gives me the confidence I need to face the day and maybe that's how you felt too. I sometimes wish you get to see us doing things you love.
Mom, I remember when you used to encourage us and sometimes force us to join a dance, art workshop and any other activities. I was a really shy girl but here I am now, a little less shy and a bit more confident girl who pursues what she loves to do. I fell in love with fashion and writing, I may not be the best writer but I find myself bolder in every page. You'd be very proud if you witness us being confident and better than we could ever be and that is all because of you. Thank you so much and Happy Mother's Day!