The things on which I have always counted upon are finally coming my way. If not wholly, then partly. Having completed school, now I am all equipped to start with the next phase, the college, of course. I am enthralled. Yes. But not without being nervous at the same time. Because from now, no longer, things would remain the way they used to be. Because now I am a grown up (or will be considered as one) who will have to apply all the DOs and DON'T s learnt till now in the life meticulously on her own. I will be living away from home. I have been quite a useless child all these years of my life. And this is why, I am on pins and needles right now. My wits are my 'used less' possessions. I haven't cared much till now to trouble my intellectual skills even in demanding situations. I have led a highly dependent life in my seventeen years of stay on this earth. Reason being, I am the youngest in my family (after my brother). Two elder sisters, yes, I have got two of them. And you know exactly what happens to the child having elder siblings. No-no, am not a spoiled one. Or if I am, then I am good spoil (not being a braggart here). Okay! Before I head towards a different story, let me make a return. So, the thing is that I have always been taken as a little girl by my parents. (So little that sometimes I have to bring my physical aspects as defence. Seriously.) And to my sisters, I am an immature little creature who would get squeezed in the world if left alone as I am having banana pudding in place of the brains in my head. (Ah! They always doubt my intellectual skills.)
So basically, they are no less scared than I am. I hope this would help reduce the extent of restlessness I am experiencing right now.
Mummy,
I may cry at night in the initial days, digging my face into the pillow so as no one hears me (this time, not even you). But you know what, I will take care of myself. I promise. I will always start my days with a gleaming smile on my face. I am telling you, your daughter will be absolutely fine.
Papa,
I may continue being a slow eater despite of your relentless efforts to make me steady. But I assure you that I won't let the world have your girl's share of cake. Don't worry.
Big sisters,
I may act as a fathead during some situations due to lack of those words of wisdom I have always been provided of by both of you till now. But, I guarantee you that I will learn, slowly but surely.
You younger brother,
Well, I am not sure what part of you would it be that I won't miss there. We won't see each other daily now but will that really make a difference. (I hope, Skype would compensate that all.) We will continue to persistently nag each other.
Well, I just realized in the past few minutes that jotting down the thoughts is much easier than speaking them out. At least, the lump in your throat can't stop you here. :')