Hello dear readers ,
My name is youssef and , i'm a 17 years old and i'm orphant from both parents and this is my story , i have been struggeling these passt 3 years , this started when my mom died my brother started to do drugs and smoking what we like to call it in Morocco -hashish- he was addicted to it , after 2 month he decided to kick out my grandma out of the house ... so ... she went to live with my uncle and left me all by myself in the line's nest ... because she was afraid for her life , after she left he called me to tell me that she did everything (to him that most of the problems that happend he's not a part of it ) he started making he's joint infront of me , like he's trying to threat me , but i didn't give a damn , and after few days he changed completely , he started to find small thing like mistakes for exemple if there was something in its place he would get angry and start shouting and yelling and sometime he beats me until i can't move my leggs or the damaged part of my body and that's why i dont like talking to him i'm complicated from he's image, he keeps heating me like a disease like he is not beating he's brother , most of the time my skin's colour changes from white to blue and red and green in the same spot , most of the times when something like that happends he's on drugs and high , and most of the time when something like this happends i go visit my grandma's and tell her what happend and everytime i tell her to go to police she doesn't want to because she doesn't like people talks and dont like people to judge her for sending her grandson to jail , all she says is that god will have my revenge of him and god is with you wherever you may go , last time i tried to go to the police he almost killed me icould barelly move , and now i stode in his face after those 3 years of suffering and told him what will i do when i get 18 years old , wich is i'm gonna split the Inheritance and take my half and leave him for good and continue my study and live happy , i think i'm mental , i wish he was dead , i've been wishing he's death for quiet sometime now but i think god has a bigger plan for me , no body in the family likes him , my grandma comes tovisit just to see me , she has a heart sickness but still she comes , she is almost 100 years old , you may wonder how do i forget -i dont- but i used to do some sick stuff like going to the hospital and pick up a knife and put it on my neck and squeeze or get a rope and try to hang myself to death but as you see my dear readers it didn't work because i know that there is something better in this life , i love life , i apreciate life , i addore life , and hope you do too , i mean why should i die , why doesn't he die , he wants the wealth , HE WANTS THE MONEY , i can't allowed this to happend i've struggeled for 3 years i can still wait 3 more months even if that means that i will Die . I want to leave happy and away even if that means that i will never see my brother , because it seems to me that i dont have a brother , if he was important to me i would be important to him , but no , i wish he was shot , i wish he was rammed by a tank anything ... but i dont want to have anything to do with his death because i'm better then him and i can't allowed myself to become a 'lion' , but that DOESN'T stop me From Defending Myself .... i'm a surviver ... dont know how long .
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