Living Paradox

I was a living paradox

Serene as sheep but like an ox 

They tell me to dance but I sing

I'm a servant,but I'm a king 

I'm alive but I felt the grave 

I'm really full but then I crave 

I am brave but then I shiver 

I am gold but like a silver

I'm the nightmare in your daydream 

I'm the dullness under the gleam 

The well-known seraphim with horns, 

wearing a halo with torns 

I will set a smile in my face, 

even when tears fall down like race

Blind, but it's a beautiful sight!

 I see the sunrise when it's night! 

My own silence was deafening! 

The heart who beats isn't beating! 

Somersault of luminesence, 

stray animal in a palace!

I'm like a fish out of water

A summer within a winter 

Like a drought under a drizzle 

Indeed, a distressful damsel!  

I am called as an honest liar, 

filthy sinner with a prayer! 

I'm like a pretty-ugly truth 

An anti-fountain of youth!

 I want it black when it is white

I want it dark when it is light 

A conflicted contradiction,

your biggest abomination!

I gently speak but it's a curse 

They said I'm best but I'm the worst!

I'm a paradox lost in verse!

Living in my own universe