When i look back.. i find my self alone. alone to be called a sun .
sun in the sense of loneliness , sun in the pride of useless planets .. perhaps.
but they refuse to acknowledge. my whole being seemed godlike to them.
gathering myself to possession my skill faded .
i became stronger than i wanted to be.
i choosed to become stronger, not a stranger.
the courage i had is drifting apart.. it now seems to be flown away.
getting up in an morning to shine , not to burn that smile of mine,
but they became blind.
days passed. on and on. i dazzled more and more..
i created, i explored there ways.
i made them shine.
it caused me damage.. collateral damage .
now i regret.
i regret a lot.
i made a mistake.
a ugly one.
burning oneself is a mistake isn't it ???
it makes you go away. it makes you..ALONE.
but when i look at my present , i find myself happy.
i find myself grinning.
you know to see a smile.
and the reason is you.
no matter how cruel they are.... they will always deserve something.
for good or for worse.
i have an obsession of being THE ONE in some one's life.
i choose to be hard as a sword.
i choose look forward.
in such hope , i know will shatter
there will be some people, across the world,
who will never leave me alone.
they will never let me fight such silent battles,
which you will never know.
they will never let me break away..
never let me swim in the devilish soup of ... inhumanity.