My story is no different than other girls of my age , Like everyone else I'm living a normal routine , sleeping , eating , studying ... But what I feel toward this Routine is what really matters .
My story started when I moved to another city , and started a new life , a life that I've always longed for , Only it wasn't as I expected it to be , It was torn , sad and very silent . I found myself alone , Far from all the people I love , and most of all I had no friends, no one to talk to , No one to laugh with , No one to share my life with . How come it's not what I always dreamt of ? I had this vision of my life in university , a happy , exiting , and most of all an active life . But I should have known that the Life I wanted is not going to happen the day I changed . It all started when I met O. , I fell in Love with him , and changed from a silly , crazy girl , to a calm , mature woman , from wearing sexy clothes , to decent ones , all of that because I loved him so much . One day , due to all the confusion that I was going through as a teenager , I decided somehow to wear the veil, I thought that I needed to be closer to God , so I did it , only with time I realized that I might have done a mistake , I didn't pray I didn't even think of my relationship with God , is veil what's gonna make me closed to God ? I was living in contradictions , and what made it worse was the new life , the life of fun , a fun that I was devoided from because of my veil , in that time I Got this feeling of void , the feeling of missing the old me. Suddenly I found myself not knowing who I really am , was I the calm girl who was happy with her attitude ? or was I the wild one who would've enjoyed every moment of her new life ? That question kept me so confused for a long time...
I made a decision : I have to take off the veil and be comfortable, I made my mind , and told my friend who was supportive, and then I decided to tell mum , but My mother's reaction was not as I expected , she completely refused and that put me in more confusion , what in God's sake will I do now ? I felt lost , alone more than I've ever felt ! but eventually I decided to keep it , I got used to it , and realized that I couldn't be the old me , not only my look changed , but most of all I changed , this veil became part of me , it's who I am now . I decided that I could live a good and fun life this way , do I have to change myself to have a life that will eventually end ? Is it really necessary to wear sexy clothes and have a great hair to have fun ? or to be liked ? I don't think that how you look is what's important , but who you really are deep inside that makes you ! It doesn't matter if you're beautiful or not , If you are fat or skinny , if you're black or white , If you're wearing a veil or not ! YOUR MIND AND HEART MAKE ALL OF THAT LOOK LIKE NOTHING :D